Thursday, June 21, 2007

H.O.P.E.

Living on hope each day. It's hope that gives me life, yet it's the same hope which takes away life.

In various things we do daily, we are always hoping. Hoping for the better. Hoping for a chance. Hoping for help from God for some maybe. Hoping that tomorrow will be better.

We never stop hoping even when everything seems to fail us. What will be of us when we learn to not hope for anything one day? Will we be better off? Or worst?

I do think that hoping is for the weak. Cuz the strong don't hope, they plan. But that's never true. Cuz no matter how strong or smart u are, there are things that u just can't control. It'll ruin your plan eventually, no matter how perfect you think it is. So when this happens, we'll be back to hoping again. Does this cycle ever stop? And yeah, prison break is just another fantasy. It'll never happen in real life. Trust me.

That said, look what i've done yesterday.
N this is so wrong..

Nevertheless, keep hoping..

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Easiest or Hardest?

Another sleepless nights it is. Was at another fren's place for mahjong till about 4 am and bunked there the whole night yesterday. So when i came home this morning, i headed straight to my bed and the next thing i know, it's 3pm.

Been doing this for almost two weeks now. Sleeping at 5am and waking up past noon. And so every night like this one tonight when i decided to go to bed earlier(by that i mean around 2 or 3am), i'll end up staring at the million dollar glow-in-the-dark stars i have on my ceiling for hours yet to find myself awake. Its really funny how sleeping can be one of the easiest thing to do and at the same time the hardest. And when your brain don't give way, it just wouldn't barge no matter how hard you try. Through experience, i actually come to realise that sleeping is the one thing that will cause your brain to function exactly the opposite way from how you expected it to work. Which means the harder you try to fall asleep, the longer you'll remain awake.

I learn that everyone have a certain time in a day where their brain habitually work itself extra hard. For some people its during a bath, for some its when they are doing their business in the toilet. Some when they are smoking, or it might be the other way round, where they actually start to smoke when they think and not think when they smoke. Anyhow, for me, it's when i sleep. At night. Pathetic. Cause that simply means i'll end up enduring a longer period of tossing and turning in my bed. Which also implies that i'll be working my brains out when its at the verge of breaking.

Ask me what i'll be thinking of and i'll probably give you a different answer everytime. Because that's how it is. Normally, you don't focus on something to think about, but it just pop up itself, and you'll continue thinking about it until something else takes over its place. Or until i fall asleep, eventually.

But there are also nights, when that "eventually" doesn't come. And tonight, is one of those nights..

My Sister's Keeper


It amazed me to see how effortless it seems for the author in describing the inner thoughts, emotions and feelings by just merely few lines or even few words. Moreover, this novel is written in a first person perspective from changing characters rotating as the chapters goes by. Not sure if there's a specific name for this sort of writing perspective, yet i find it really interesting as the author must have to put herself into a totally different person's shoe as she writes and this makes it all the more harder. Yet, she succeeded. And i salute her for that.

A no-regrets novel i would say. Sure you will love it.

Monday, June 11, 2007

无底的黑

好多年前
说好了
一辈子守在你身边
为何今天我竟反悔

你不停后退
害怕跌进无底的黑
你硬着嘴角
说你无所谓
我不相信
却也不想再追

而我们
只存在无底的黑
似个小偷
偷了不属于我们的世界
互相安慰
然后后悔

在众人面前
无法面对
没有未来
只好后退

如何能完美
这无底的黑

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Love this one too

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bdv88mw-tQ

Another 3am post

Back to youtube this two days. Funny clips here n there.

then, found MVs which i used to like a lot last time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dpbKu1nF8Co

and this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmi0UbO7PZI

He's cute n she's pretty..

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Streamyx

Finally done with all the setups and wiring. Finally i hv internet access in my room now.

Faster bring me to EASTCOAST too!!

Lately, for whatever the reason being, almost everyone is either going to// just went to//planning to go to ---> Redang//Tioman//Perhentian//LangTengah...

I mean why this sudden east coast fever?? The only reason i can think of is bcuz it's not monsoon season over there currently.

But still.. i would say "No other places to go meh??"

Don't know why am i feeling so agitated whenever my friends tell me they are going to east coast lately.

Maybe it's bcuz i didn't get to go? Jealous i think.. Feel left out.. hoho..

*wink*