Easiest or Hardest?

Another sleepless nights it is. Was at another fren's place for mahjong till about 4 am and bunked there the whole night yesterday. So when i came home this morning, i headed straight to my bed and the next thing i know, it's 3pm.

Been doing this for almost two weeks now. Sleeping at 5am and waking up past noon. And so every night like this one tonight when i decided to go to bed earlier(by that i mean around 2 or 3am), i'll end up staring at the million dollar glow-in-the-dark stars i have on my ceiling for hours yet to find myself awake. Its really funny how sleeping can be one of the easiest thing to do and at the same time the hardest. And when your brain don't give way, it just wouldn't barge no matter how hard you try. Through experience, i actually come to realise that sleeping is the one thing that will cause your brain to function exactly the opposite way from how you expected it to work. Which means the harder you try to fall asleep, the longer you'll remain awake.

I learn that everyone have a certain time in a day where their brain habitually work itself extra hard. For some people its during a bath, for some its when they are doing their business in the toilet. Some when they are smoking, or it might be the other way round, where they actually start to smoke when they think and not think when they smoke. Anyhow, for me, it's when i sleep. At night. Pathetic. Cause that simply means i'll end up enduring a longer period of tossing and turning in my bed. Which also implies that i'll be working my brains out when its at the verge of breaking.

Ask me what i'll be thinking of and i'll probably give you a different answer everytime. Because that's how it is. Normally, you don't focus on something to think about, but it just pop up itself, and you'll continue thinking about it until something else takes over its place. Or until i fall asleep, eventually.

But there are also nights, when that "eventually" doesn't come. And tonight, is one of those nights..