Back again?

And I thought its the end of this site, yet I found myself back here again.

Somehow I am emotional at times, at nights like these when my brain just wouldn't shut off.

This little black hole of mine seems to have a certain ability allowing me to release all my emotional stress, unlike its brother site.

Simply thought it would be good to do away with all the depressing posts on the other site, where it begin with a happy note and that's how its gonna stay and will be for the rest of its "lifetime". And i thought it would be good too for me personally, to do away with posting depressing entries.

Yet, its hardly possible. Guess I'm back to square one.

Long rants, depressing thoughts, all these has to be release somewhere somehow as loneliness creeps in. Looking through my blog archives sometimes freak myself out.

Still remember a friend said to me, he feels good to be around me because of my nature of a strong sense of confidence which makes him feel confident bout things and perhaps himself too.

Yet, each time when I am alone, I don't think I am really that confident in things after all. I tend to worry about almost everything that comes to mind, and indulge myself in my own world of sad, emo, depressing thoughts. It's just me.

I tend to be able to relate with emo writings, blog post, songs than those which carry a light and happy tune. I tried to get rid of that part of me, but obviously i failed. Which i then conveniently resorted to accepting that as part of who i am.

Ah.. how foolish.

Was watching toradora, a jap anime on youtube. Currently waiting for its last episode, ep25 to be released by this weekend. And I wonder why animes always have cool lines to go along with. The way the story line builds up is interesting, but what gives the kick i would say, would be the very meaningful lines of conversations, or inner thoughts the main character would carry at the end of each episodes or occasions.

What amazed me is that, even after translation, from the ori japanese to english subtitles, the lines still sound meaningful and heart felt. Cause usually translations ruin every single piece in any movies for that matter. But not for jap animes.

Ah.. How I love nice animes.

Sigh.. guess i should go back to sleep now, its 3.19am, n god knows what i'm rambling here.