You and him...

You’re the one beside him,
You’re the only one,
When his world fades away,
You promise to stay.

He called one day,
And cried over the phone,
You never say a word,
But that’s already more than enough.

Stay a while more he said,
Stay a while more when he’s in pain,
Stay. Please stay.
That’s what he said.

Since then,
Your relations grow,
You’re always near him,
Or rather he’s always near you,

Though it’s so far apart in reality,
He’s glad having you around,
With just a message each day,
You cheered him up.

You never ask for more,
N you never give anything extra,
Just enough to keep him breathing,
Just enough to keep everything the same.

Perhaps it might end one day,
But he’ll never forget you,
The one who send him good night messages each night,
The one who hang on the phone with him remaining silence for a long long time.

Thank you for being there when he needed you most,
And thank you for still being there until this day.

Black

Black is a mixture of sadness and pain,
It’s the color that dwells in me each day,
Since the day u left,
Or way before that I guess.

U said when u kiss,
Part of u remains in the other person,
How true is it I wonder,
Because all I am now is u.

Hate the way I am now,
Hiding in this shade,
A place where u still remains,
Indulge myself in all this bitterness and pain.

So many times I started,
Reminiscing the times we used to be,
But it somehow ended,
And black is the color I see..

Will u ever notice?
Will u ever see?
Or is it just me?
Is it just me?

BLUR n TIRED...A lil' bit of frustration 2..

Staring at my book,
physics,
it remains at chapter 22,
again.

With confusing equations on it,
some weird Xs n Os,
A lot of lines and arrows,
in addition of greek descriptions.

Save me God!!

Rain Again...

It's when the rain starts to pour,
outside the wide opened window,
into the misty lake,
I saw your face again.

Missing you again it seems,
like how I always do..
Missing the way u kiss me in the rain,
and burry yourself in me on rainy days.

The rain never seemed to stop,
and I hope it'll last forever..
But what I hope wasn't what it seemed to be,
It stopped, anyway.

The rain brought u away as well,
leaving me behind this heavenly hell,
sitting alone in the mists beyond the lake,
where nobody's around.

A puzzle with it’s central piece missing,
leaving the whole as worthless as it may be.
A black and white piece of art it is,
it's value only grows when it’s paint decays..

Things I Regret

It hurts, you’ll not see it
Inside, I’m not healing
It looks, I am happy
But I’m drowning in so much pain

You may see me
Everyday with a smile
But it’s that one thing
I always long forever

I don’t want to let it show
That I’m living in my past to know
There are things I shouldn’t have done before
Things I could not turn back no more

It seems, I am hopeless
I’m not I’m just depressed
I know, I should feel lucky
At least all I need is myself

If I could go back
To my past
I will change everything
Everything I’ve done
That I never knew,
That I never knew
I’ll regret now..

Things I regret now..

Midori...

By the time I notice
I was thinking about u
I thought that was really embarrassing
And I really hated it
It’s because I am afraid to convey my feelings
Even if I suppress it in my head
I can’t do anything about my heart
To make u not able to notice when we meet
And to make it no different from now on
Is how I plan to talk to you but couldn’t
I am suffering
I ended up lying to u , but…

Just a bit more… just a bit more…
If I can get closer to your heart
Just a bit more… just a bit more…
Try not to erase this moment
Please god, give me courage

Strawberry flavored kiss?

Slept late last nite, so i had a nap after class this noon 4 bout 2 hours. Dreamt..

I forget how it started, which i wish i could, but anyway, i only rmb i was on a bus with this gal.. She wasn't sitting beside me. I was one seated behind her n on the right while she was on the left section. Don't rmb her as pretty, but she's kinda sweet thou. Short hair, cute face, sparkling eyes(i think so)..hehe...

Then, she turned around n said sth to me while stretchig her hand out with a red pen on it. I couldn't hear her, so she repeated again, but it seems like she doesn't wanna let me hear actually. So i leaned over, hope that i'll get to hear her this time as i'm closer now. Then.... here's the main point of the post!! Then... She actually leaned over n kissed me.. Just a brief one thou.

I rmb it tasted sweet, like strawberry.. Dun wanna describe tht here, but it's simply awesome.. Wut luck to hv dreams like this i tot.. hehe...

Then i asked for her number, n she took my hand n wrote it on my palm. Couldn't rmb it thou. If not, i would go buy lottery n bet on my luck like those ah pek... hehe..

After tht i couldn't rmb much actually. Just rmb another scene after the bus, i was at her house, i think her family invited me over for dinner. N i was with her in the kitchen taking out plates n stuff, then the next scene which is the last part which i could rmb, i was sitting with her family at the dining table.. n then, i woke up!!

tht's all i can rmb. It's 3.40am now, n i'm still here posting this... wanna sleep... n hope my dream will hv a continuation... PART 2!! Wish me luck!!

Miss my lil' Rover..

Look at he's handsome face.. Smiling happily.. Miss him much..

After-effect...

This is a warning to all late night gamers(like me), pls be aware of the consequences b4 making the decision for staying up late to DotA.

The after-effect of late night games and insufficient rest can be summarize as follows,
1) Body aching
2) Tiredness that lasts for the rest of the following day(or more)
3) 4 ulcers in the mouth(or more)
4) Cracking of lips
5) Pimples popping out
6) EYE BAGs!!! Looks more like panda/ghost now...
7) Struggling to keep your eyes open in class
8) Skipped a call-lab session
9) Slept during the whole ICIS class
10) Homework, assignment n study schedule delayed
11) BAD mood n BAD temper
12) UNHEALTHY
13) and more....

Ps: Nvr let my sis read this, she'll kill me if she did...

DOTA

Dota'ing pretty much lately. Last two nites played till 5 am n 3 am in the morning.

Geez.. My results for this sem will surely drop. Dunno how am i going to cope with my studies if i continue this way. Even on weekdays, almost everynite will hv a round of dota.

However, think over again, if i am at home i will be watching tv and online as well. But over here, i hardly ever watch tv in the common room. So i guess the time used to Dota will be balanced by the time 4 tv last time. ya? Or am i simply self-denying??

Seriously, i would be bored to death over here if there's no dota'ing time. I mean, it's the only leisure other than sports and study. But of course, i shud be focusing more on my sports and studies rather than placing all my time in dota'ing. And rest as well. no more 5 o'clock games. NO MORE.

And even as i'm blogging now, my frens in another room are dota'ing d. DOTA DOTA DOTA... Even when i'm studying, i can hear "TRIPLE KILL", "MOOoooNSTER KILL", "GODLIKE" from sam's(my DEAR rumate) com. Sigh...

Sometimes i wonder is this the life of U students?? Is this wut ppl always called Uni/campus life?? But i thought it's supposed to be great n fun, how come mine isn't anything like tht? I wonder..

A fren of mine invited me for a disney on ice show in penang on 15/4. RM90 for a one day trip. Evrything is included except for food. Wanted to go, but end up i changed my mind. Maybe if i join more of these outings, i'll learn more n c more. But i chose not to go anyway. Dun ask me y.

THE END.