Argh!!!!!!!!!!!

Finalz =Depressed+TEnsion+StreSs+WorRieD+PaniC

Here's another one... how pathetic i am.. hehe..

当时的爱依然被时间打败,
奋不顾身的爱我无法找回来.
我原本也不相信,
曾经受过伤害,
就再也站不起来.
可能是我脆弱,
也可能这就是爱.
看回以前的画面,
心中许多感慨.
不知该高兴还是悲哀.
好想再次像以前一样去爱,
但始终怕再受到伤害.
可能是我懦弱,
也可能这就是爱.
我真的好想爱你,
好想无约束地爱你,
但过去始终不把我放开.
我无法站回起来,
我无法从新再爱.

Some old time writings in chinese..

Used to write a lot in chinese last time, lots of craps though...hehe.. Saw Jm's post n i tot it's not a bad idea to post some of my old writings here. Funny n kinda weird though, looking back at the things i wrote back then. Innocent toughts. Here u go..

当爱已不在,
一切都已找不回来,
我在你心中也变得如此丑怪.
但为何我还在不停地等待?
等待你回来,
等待你的爱,
等待着一些不可能的期待.
如何才能让你明白,
我只想给你我的爱?
如何才能让你明白,
我不曾把你伤害?
为何你会说出,
一些不该说的对白?
为何我的心,
你还是弄不明白?
为何到现在,
我还需要猜,
你是否曾经,
真的爱.

Finals closing in..

One week to finals,
I'm unprepared,
Unaware.

Screwed up my tests,
i wonder why.

This sem is a total disaster,
didn't hv proper rest,
neither did i study much.

Finals is always the hardest,
if i can't score in test,
wut more bout finals.

Down with 7 days,
i dun hv much options.

Study...

HELP!!!

I'm dying...I'm drowning...

Juz done my drama. Exhausted. But i can't rest yet. Tests coming..

Chem test tmr 8am.

After chem, still can't rest yet..

MM test the followig day at 9am.

N i haven even touched anything on mm yet!!

Exhausted!! Tired!!

But still hv to study!!

U think i'll manage to finish?? I dun think so...

Die la...

Feel like jumping off the top of UFO(chancellor hall) now..

Sigh....

Don't worry..

I can finish it in time.

I'll manage to finish it.

I will...

Or i hope so...

Enough..

Enough of all these craps..

Now...

Bak to study...

N pray...

Wish me luck!!

Pinky's LION!!

Today's character that we're gonna discuss is Pinky's lion!!!It's supposed to be one of the toys for the drama. N it turns out to be one of my favorite toy, for only one reason : IT"S HAIR CAN BE SHAPED!! Here's a few pics of our LION!!

Tadaa!! Lion under the lime light!!N it's waving!!

Side view of lion!!


Lion just woke up.Or maybe he's out of gel today!!


Lion SHOCKED!!

Latest hairstyle.


-DRessEd By Bl@nk-

Drama practice pics

Our group's drama presentation will be tmr. We had a full dress rehearsal just now. the flow of our drama wan't that smooth yet, many of us still miss our queue or forget our lines. Had fun though.Here's some pics...More to come. unable to download some due to connection probs... will try again next time. Meantime, pls bare with these few photos 1st k?



Our group photo!!(N yes, i noe i'm odd!! But tht's my "costume". Wut to do??)


The crew doing the montage. Of cuz, i was just wanting to get into the pic!!


It's pinky(big bully), me n TOYS!!


While everyone's busy, i took time playing with the balloon.SWT!


OMG!! This is what happens when i'm bored. Mischievious n playful me.

Pics!!

Noticing that this blog lacks of photos.
I randomly chose a few of my most recent pics.

This is taken rite after my haircut in the dresser's house.



With sis in pizza during midsem break.



Haha.. No comment bout this. Just posing for fun.



Lastly,caught while i was drinking. Nearly burst out laughing.

What am i thiking??

Ashamed i am. After what happened today, i realise how little trust i have in others. Even after all these years, all these trust, how can i still think of you this way?? All those silly thoughts. Wonder what will happen if u ever found out the truth. How childish i am.

I am blessed to have you. And for this, i promise i'll never mistrust you anymore. No more tricks. No more manipulative thoughts. No more. Ever and ever.

Sorry..

How many BAD things can occur in a day??

Today is by far the worst day of my life since i stepped into UTP.

Woke up at 8 plus n attended mm lecture at 9.. evrything was normal except for my eyes. reddish n a bit (very mild)swollen. had to cover an eye thruout the lecture to ease the irritation.

Then, slept straight after class at 10.00 til around 11.40. had lunch alone in V1.

Received my lab test question by 2. Scratching my head from then on. Couldn't even manage to understand the question completely. I ended up sending the answers back to Jerome(tutor) with two sections empty. Tht's my 1st time submitting in without completing the answers. Normally, by hook or by crook i'll simply write down some craps b4 submitting my answers, if you write sth, u might be lucky enuf to pick up 1 or 2 marks, tht's my theory all these while in tests or exams. But this time, i'm completely blur n blank is the best word to describe my condition at the moment. sweat!!

After that, it's ICIS test time!! I totally freaked out when i saw the questions. i've done 3 sets of past year test questions, n it's really easy. nothing compared to what the real test turned out to be. Anyway, as i was trying to open my pencil case, the whole zip thingy came out. YES!! MY DAMN PENCIL CASE WAS DOOMED!! Realizing that the countdown has started, i quickly tear open my pencil case, took out my pencil n answer. after 5 minutes, there's an announcement made: " Students, please answer with pen, no pencils!!"

What?? Why didn't u tell us earlier?? Sigh... i had my rubber tortured, n rewrite everything in pen. N as usual, i was still in a blank condition staring at the half blank answer sheet. However. i managed to scribble all the empty spaces with junks after all.

Finished the test at 5. Got back to my room. It was raining by then, i was exhausted. Continued my story book on my uncomfy bed.

Then dined at v4 around 7, n attended english tutorial until 10. Rushed bak, bathed n hand-washed the pile of dirty clothes i've been keeping for 4 days. the clock is ticking at 10.40pm by then. Rushed to MPH for drama practice which is supposed to be at 1030. not until midway when i suddenly realised that i've forgotten my script. Walked all the way back for that and it delayed me for another 5 minutes. Drama practice went out smooth thou, tht's the one thing i appreciated most today. but it ended late.

At 1 am, i'm bak in my rum. Since my chemical assessment n flow chart for tmr's lab session aren't prepared yet, sleep is a distanced hope. Everything happened so fast today, as disastrous as it seemed, i certainly didn't even get a chance to catch my breathe. N now, i'm seriously tired n exhausted. Hope u were here today, but somehow, u didn't. U had a great time today i guess. Abondoning me alone when i needed acompany most.

It's 230am now, still half way thru my flow chart, chem assess done. guess i shud stop blogging n catch some rest. Will complete the flow chart tmr.

God, pls make tmr a better day. N pls, wake me up tmr 4 lab at 8!! Amen!

Nites..