Friends come n go, don't they?

Today is Mk's birthday.

Picked her up last nite to go out for a drink since i haven seen her for a long time. Charmain followed along as well. Wanted to take some pics with them both but too bad i forget my cam. How forgetful i can get these days..

A fruitful night to catch up with friends b4 i "yi lu xiang bei" again. N i'm glad she's happy to have her birthday celebrated in a slightly different way this year. With no cakes, no presents, no parties, no TE gang, but only the three of us with some drinks n chattings. N of cuz, lots of laughters.

As we were chatting about the gud old days when we're still in high school. I started wondering, how many of us frens can last long enough to c each other graduate, n mayb get married, or mayb hv children? sounds impossible isn't it?

Even now, the sense of belonging among TE gang seems to fade. Ppl closes to me also isn't that close anymore. When we sit down in mamaks, topic runs dry, n we start staring each other feeling uneasy. N even my phone doesn't beep that much anymore. Is this going to continue this way?

N each time i ask if u miss me, i'm actually wondering when will u say u dun. When will that be? seriously, when will that be?

End of hols..

Will be going back to campus on sat morning. Finally, my mid sem break is almost over.

Haven done much, besides finishing FUllHOUSE, Utopia, eat, spend time with parents and baby rou. din even get to c much of sis. She's pretty busy with her uni activities. Gonna miss her lots.

This time around, i'll be facing my finals again b4 i can rest for another 1 n a half months in mid november.

Having insomnia lately, i wonder.. Only 18, n i'm having this prob. mayb i'm not used to my bed at home anymore. that sounds pathetic to me. it's like having something u once lived with n now u can no longer feel comfortable with it anymore. how can this be happening.

Or perhaps i think too much lately? Been thinking pretty much this few months. Thinking what i will become in 3 years time, will i graduate with an honours? or perhaps i won't make it that far? thinking bout how life will be for me when i'm out working. I want to be a succesful person. that's what they taught me to be since i'm 5. or maybe younger. Tht's why people study so hard n work so hard each day. Just to be succesful.

Then what is being succesful? To many ppl, it means to be rich. To be famous maybe? Having higher social status? being able to brag around with their big houses n big cars perhaps?

For me, I want to have a nice n cozy room to begin with. With carpeted walls, a king size bed, a tv set, a com, complete with surrounding system. that's what i dreamt of since young. Weird dream huh? i never like my room. it's not carpeted, single bed, lousy window, broken door, dim fluorescent light, n the list goes on.. not liking it is one thing, but i really do appreciate what i have now. at least i hv MY room to begin with. rmb since young, many of my frens hv to share rooms with their siblings, i'm always proud to hv my own.

I don't need a big car, just a plain one will do.

I want a high paid job. According to what i learn n understand all these years, money may not be everything, but everything needs money. n the word succesful can never go without 'money'. i dun nid to be rich, but i dun wanna be poor either. so if i hv to choose one, i'll surely choose to be rich. simple logic isn't it. Bear in mind, we're living in a realistic world. not the fantasy world we c on Tvs.

I want a perfect family, but i noe that can never come true, cuz ppl use to say 'Nth is perfect'. So maybe i should rephrase. I want a good family. beautiful wife n wonderful kids.. haha.. [evilish grin] Tht's just plain hope though.

N ya, b4 that, i would like to do my parents a favor. Fulfill their dreams. There are things that they wish to do but couldn't due to circumstances, n i really hope that i can make things come true for them one day.

These are the things that i think of, dream of n wonder about these few months. Maybe it'll come true one day n i hope i'll be satisfied with myself then. If things do not turn out that way, i guess God has a bigger plan for me n i shud pray more often. haha..

So, i shall get some rest now..

Nites all..

Misery

Another night of me n me alone..

Hols seems to be relaxing but at the same time suffocating..

Days pass by without warnings while Nights go by slowly yet torturing..

I'm having insomnia lately..

Dreaming of you and you leaving...

Misery..

Foundation Graduation Ceremony!!

Planned to skip this graduation ceremony at 1st. Last night dota till 3am somemore. Was still sleeping when Sam woke up n went. Was still sleeping when jia min told me that attendance was taken. Lazily, i climbed out of my comfy bed, wash up n iron my shirt. there goes my sleep i thought.

Was wondering if i need to walk to chancellor hall this time since Sam already went with Peng on bike. Luckily, I looked down from my window and saw Langesh coming back on his bike, he forgotten his matric card. God bless.. I found my transport. haha..

The ceremony was extremely boring. It's actually a rehearsal for final year graduation ceremony besides our actual graduation ceremony. So we have to wait till their rehearsal finished, before we can actually collect our cert on stage. One by one. And speaking of our cert, wut we actually get from the rector is only an empty file, i wonder what happened to my cert. Think it'll be given later.

The best part of all this is-->Photo Session!! With everyone wearing formal attire, trying to look smart, we certainly won't forget to pose n take pics!! lots n lots of them. N i juz noticed that i haven't took any pics with sam yet, not until today after almost 1 n 1/2 years being rumates.

Here are some pics to share:



Me n Shiou Ting!!(She looks extremely nice with her baju kurung)




This is me n Lenis(the guy staying opposite my room!Sarawakian!Also the guy who always hold my pillow tight tight n say"kap seng dai fat!!"- trying to absorb my knowledge which he believes is stored in my pillow! sweat!)




Again, Lenis n KeeHui(Kelantanese). Gayness defined!




This is the group of EE chinese students which are all same class as me.




Lastly, me n my poser rummie. Kept asking me to take his solo pics.. sigh!!



Okie..Tht's all for now. Will try to edit n upload more pics next time!

ps:i had MC dapao from Kai San(Colleen's fren) today!! Yummie...

Bee hive..

Huge bee hive found on my window since long ago. Finally removed it today after Sam(my rummie) ran out of the room after seeing a huge bee roaming around.

B4 removing it, i took some pics of it too..



Here's a pic of it b4 removing proccess starts. keke..*evilish*

After smashing part of it, u can c the interior.

notice the diff colors(green,black,yellow..)

And if u can c, u'll notice there's a yellow thingy with the shape of the 'bullet tablets"(though u can only c half of it.). I wonder if tht's the egg? or food? n the black thing, i guess it's the shit perhaps? while the green one looks like someone's puke..

so "wat tat"...