Recent happenings..

On the previous sunday, i joined a chess tournament which was held in UTP in conjunction with Convofair. The special thing about this tourney is that it was an attempt to be the biggest chess tournament ever held in M'sia.

N they DID IT!! With a total of 960 participants, it has successfully made it's way up to the M'sia's Book of Records!! Wow.. An attempt like this is simply unexpected to me. I mean, if i would be the organisers, i'll never ever thought of attempting something like this. N trust me, all of this were planned by the students, not the management ppl or whichever big shot. UTP ppl are ambitious isn't it??

However the proccess of the competition that day was horrible. Lots of mistakes and delay made by the organisers. From a 40 mins game, it became a 20 mins one, which gives each player only 10 mins t complete the game. And u can imagine how fast each step has to be taken!! And it was supposed to be a 8 round competition, however, it ended with 7 rounds only due to time constraints. Terrible time management. Maybe it's due to the overwhelming ammount of participants, or... the inefficiency of the organisers. I personally prefer the latter. Kaka...

N the category i was in is the IPT category. It has more than 250 participants, and again i couldn't climb into the top 10. However, i was in the 18th rank!! Got a hamper, and a cert with the M'sia Book of Records logo on it! Cool ya? hehe..

Some pics to share below:

The hamper which i've won!



N this is the result of playing 7 20mins games continuously. Tired n exhausted.



Besides the chess tournament, there was a talk from Tun Mahathir on the topic "cabaran2 mentadbir sesebuah negara" in the previous week. took some pics on that day. Couldn't get a clear shot of Mahathir thou, due to the far distance n no-flash circumstances.


This is taken with Jia Min while waiting for the arrival of Tun Mahathir.



N this is one of those blur pics of Mahathir.

回你身边

火车慢慢地往前
烟雾弥漫着思念
缠绕一圈又一圈
沉默的我睁开眼
看着窗外的蓝天
窗中的我在流泪
越过你曾说的田
种满了向日葵
突然哽咽一切一切
我多想回你身边
乘坐着旋转木马的乐园
看幸福转动得多么甜
我多想回你身边
走过最初相遇的地点
好让我再从头复习一遍

我早已没有感觉
如果想你多一天
就会伤我多一些
抛开了所有时间
让自己心情沉淀
好能飞出这世界
越过你曾说的田
种满了向日葵
我的眼泪抵不去从前
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My pics!!

Everytime when me n my frens hv an outing, or birthday celebration, we'll take loads of pics. Here are some of the pics that i've collected.


1B's birthday!




Charmain's birthday!




Les n Jian Wei's birthday!



So after seeing this pics with so many happy faces, u muz be wondering this---> WHERE IS BENNY??

Yes, where am i?? I would like to know that as well. And i've got the answers below.
Lets have a look!


ME!




ME!




ME!




ME!



Now, u muz be thinking am i in Tanjung Rambutan? Not accurate, but very close.I'm actually at the new joint of tanjung rambutan! A place called UTP (University of Tanjung Pisang)!! Where they keep lunatics like me which they believe hv the ultimate potential to be cured.

This is the Logo of UTP which resembles the 2 mighty Pisangs!



Here's a sky view of University of Tanjung Pisang!



So frens, pls feel free to come visit me anyday, anytime...

Far far away...

2 weeks or less n i'll be bak to Uni. This few days ain't going out that much anymore. Most(all i mean) of my friends are busy with life, busy studying/working. Sis having orientation week in UM. left alone at home everyday.

With world cup going on, my days are longer i think. only close my eyes at 5am earliest. n will try to wake up b4 11, normally i'll sleep till glory n wake up only for lunch, but sleeping more means less time being awake at home. With each hour of sleep also means each hour closer to Uni. So, i start sleeping less n less.

Remember i hate sleeping when i was young, or rather when i was small. i often wonder like most of us used to, how nice if human can live without sleeping. N my parents will have to force me to bed. N i'll continue talking n talking to myself till i fall asleep. Yeah... i noe i'm a weirdo. tht's how i was, n what made me who i am now. starts to get so philosophical pulak..

anyway, tht's not the point. today's topic is far far away.


No, it's not the typical opening for every fairytales where it'll go like this " At a land far far away... n blablabla" tht i meant. it's all bout... me...*emotional* hehe..

i wonder, am i really that secretive? all the while, i tot i'm a very out spoken person, fun n straight forward. but i've been receiving comments on how intransparent i am. comments like "y u always seems so protective?", "can u be a lil' bit more transparent?", or "i hope u'd be more frank with me, but u didn't." N i'll go like, "huh? i tot i've told u almost everything" or "u nvr ask!!" when i'm pissed. n i seriously think that way. is there any problem with me?? or them??

Yesterday, someone told me this "sometimes i feel that u r so far away..".


*SHOCKED*

*STUNNED*

*JAWS DROPPED*

*EYES WIDE WIDE STARED AT CEILING*

*EMOTIONLESS*

It's the same comment again!!! *breathe in, breathe out*

N the ironic part of this is all of this ppl who told me this r considered as those closest to me. If these ppl still feel that i'm far away, then wut bout those who are just "normal" frens??

So i started wondering if the problem really lies with me now. N this can make me crazy, cuz i always tot tht i'm the outspoken type. never secretive. never. sigh~

Or.. perhaps.. Maybe.. i really am?? N tht's y i often find tht there's a barrier btwn me n my frens, n it's often hard for me to get rid of it. Other than my own gang of frens, others often treat me with so much courtesy n manners n respect where it makes me feel as if i'm not belong to the group bcuz i treat them tht way 2. as if i'm just some visitor from some planet. Is it sth positive or negative actually? n mayb tht's y i dun get along with ppl fast enough tht when i'm ready, they'd already formed a group n i'm left out. N the most prominent evidence is the existence of this blog itself, i didn't let anyone noe bout it's existence at 1st, not until some of my UTP frens found it. N till today, only 2 of my KL frens noe bout this blog. sigh. The more i think of it, the clearer it becomes. i really AM secretive!!! Undeniable. Holy shit, it took me 18 years to figure this out!!

Pathetic me. So y is it that i still have this secretive nature in me when i try so hard not to after someone said tht i am intransparent? is it because of my bringing up? Is it because of our culture or traditions as chinese where we often possess a kiasu spirit n thus afraid to let ppl noe bout u, bout wut u think deep inside? Or maybe it's the other way round, maybe all the while, i'm trying too hard to be big, to be strong, to be flawless, to hide my timid self. N there's where my defensive n secretive nature comes into play?

Im confused. N i dun even noe if this is a gud or bad phenomenon...

Alrite, gotta catch some sleep now.. n perhaps i'll dream away to a far far land... Hidden...

Oops.. did i say hidden?? Argh!! i really am secretive.. sweat..


Me??!!

Nites..

Pics for Prom!!

Rmb i promised to update on prom. but i din, not because i forget or i'm lazy, it's simply because there's really not much happenings, and nth that will make me wanna mark that down in this blog. Prom is just disastrous. Horribly boring. It's another big let down.

Howeva, i got to meet up with some long-time-no-c buddies n also took some pics. tried to upload more, but my 56k-modem doesn't allow me to do so anymore. here's what we've got:


Weng Hong and me. Highskul buddy.



Barbie girl-Audrey- and me!!



Went 4 mamak after prom session. It's Shiao Wern n me!!

Hope will get to upload more pics next time!