I wonder...

I've seen so many different people in my life. So many different type of thinkings. And i often wonder how can people be so different in so many ways. God must be a real creative creator i guess. One of the topics i often ponder upon is love and coupling.


Since i've came to UTP, i've seen so many people coupled up even since 1st sem, and some made it till now, but most of them didn't. And those who broke up, found themselves a new partner soon enough to fall in love again. Things seems so easy for them.

I seriously wonder whether people coupled up for the fun of having a relationship or they really are in love with one another. But if you were to pick any couple and ask, why they are coupling up in the 1st place. They'll answer you--->LOVE,DUH~~ And they'll certainly give you the dumb looking face like they are actually re-evaluating your mentality for asking them such a simple question with a simple answer. So i assume all couples couple up because of LOVE.

But is this really love? Is love something so fragile and so insignificant that you are able to get into a relationship so easily and yet forget about the same person u "loved" once so quickly? It's not hard to find teenagers with more than 5 past relations in their 20 years or so of lifetime nowadays. Is this considered normal? Is this what it is supposed to be like for everyone?

For me, i am never used to committing myself in a relationship that easily. I always believe that a relationship only starts when both of you are really in love with one another and has gone through enough to prove that. Certainly not something that you "play-play" and throw away when you're done. Also, a friend of mine said this-"ganqing ke yi pei yang de" in mandarin. Which literally means, love can be nurtured through time. If you haven't get the meaning of this statement yet, let me make it straight for you. It means that, u can go to any night club or even shopping malls, see any hot chicks u like, walk up to them, flirt with them, bring them home and make them your girl. What about the love and feelings? Well, don't worry about that, it can be NURTURED SLOWLY THROUGH TIME!!! Impressing right?

However, back to me, i've been holding up and keeping this "sacred place" in my heart for the upcoming QUEEN which is yet to be identified. And with this thinking, i certainly wants the best candidate as my QUEEN. And so, i've unconsciously set a bar so high that i measure it with Ms Malaysia and still she's an inch shorter from the mark. And i guess that's why i'm still single today!! lol..



Not that i am desperate to get a girl or what not, it's just that seeing people making out and breaking up and making out AGAIN and breaking up AGAIN makes me wonder. Am i the one who's abnormal here or is it them? Why am i trying so hard to keep the "sacred place" as holy as it can be while others can even fit two in it at the same time? Should i be like them? or should they be like me?

Or maybe according to the theory of compromising, both "them" and i should blend our thoughts where we take half from each side and make them one. So now, the bar is much lower but at least the "sacred place" exist in their life too. Is this the way?