Long time didnt update. lotsa things going on these few weeks. but it ain't that easy for me to put them all in words in a not long than 2k words post. So i rather don't blog about them now. N lately, i'm getting so lazy n reluctant to post bout anything. so, i apologise for the no-update-blog n this-meaningless-post just so that i'll feel better later. lol..
n not to forget, happy new year folks!! for ehsan-ers, appreciate this time we share together!! n for utpers, enjoy the remaining hols with your frens n love ones!! nitez everyone.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
爱的点滴
忘记几时开始，
失去了思念，
麻木了感觉，
不再爱，
不再期待。
但不久之前，
遇见了你，
我找回了，
好久不见的情绪，
好久好久不见的自己。
那天起，
我开始烦恼，
你是否不在意，
还是在暗中留意，
你的不经意，
是逃避，
还是空城计。
开始怀念，
你的言语，
你的笑意，
你的无聊白痴，
你的天真梦幻。
你的一切，
不停地播映，
在我脑海里。
你的佳名，
不停地找寻，
在我手机。
烦恼与快乐，
把握在你。
而我，
慢慢迷失自己。
啊。。。
这种感觉，
遗失好久的感觉，
逐渐提醒自己，
爱，
的点点滴滴。。。
失去了思念，
麻木了感觉，
不再爱，
不再期待。
但不久之前，
遇见了你，
我找回了，
好久不见的情绪，
好久好久不见的自己。
那天起，
我开始烦恼，
你是否不在意，
还是在暗中留意，
你的不经意，
是逃避，
还是空城计。
开始怀念，
你的言语，
你的笑意，
你的无聊白痴，
你的天真梦幻。
你的一切，
不停地播映，
在我脑海里。
你的佳名，
不停地找寻，
在我手机。
烦恼与快乐，
把握在你。
而我，
慢慢迷失自己。
啊。。。
这种感觉，
遗失好久的感觉，
逐渐提醒自己，
爱，
的点点滴滴。。。
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
C-H-R-I-S-T-M-A-S
Four years ago, i had my 1st christmas.. Not many know that i was a buddhist before. Not many know that i can speak, read and write in mandarin too. People often give me the *surprise* look, when they find out bout these.
That year, i was in form 3, remember i followed Leslie to his church(Wesley Kepong Methodist Church), during the World Cup 2002 party. Couldn't remember which teams were playing that night, but it was the finals. The church bought a brand new TV n let us all watched from the TV before it was auctioned out right after the match. N i was there as one of the friends invited by church members. I wasn't a Christian yet.
Since form 1, i had been joining CF-Christian Fellowship. You know the kind of activities u have in school after friday's classes. I still remember both the name of the teachers who worked for the establishment of our school's CF which is still not approved in school till today. They are the ones who invited me to CF. They are the ones who opened my eyes to a new world. They are the ones who gave me the option to choose a new way of living life.
That week, we had a movie session, it was in the APD room where they played a video portraying the life of Jesus. How Jesus came into the world, how he healed many, preached and taught the disciples, how he was crucified and rose again on the third day. After that movie, one of the teachers asked us to bow our heads with our eyes shut. Then she asked for those who choose to believe in Him, to raise their hands. I raised mine. One week after that, i received my first bible which i still keep with me. N if u flip to the 1st page of the bible, u'll see two names on it--Mdm Chu Siew Mei, and Ms Goh Suzie. N i wanna thank you deep down from my heart. Thank you.
I started reading the bible, but not for long, and i didn't continue participating in CF after some time. Until form 3, i followed Leslie to church for a couple of times. Then there were some tragedy that happened to my family. N we told ourselves, now is the time. Me n my whole family got baptized that Christmas in church. Of course during the course of deciding to accept Christ into our lives was difficult and complicating. It took us about 4 months to actually say "I'm ready Lord!!" N many helped us during that period of time. N this i must give honor to Leslie and his family. A sincere appreciation for all that they have done for us. Thank you.
Now, i have been a Christian for 4 years.. In this 4 years time, i must admit, this period of time is the farthest i find myself from God. Been carrying the luke-warm attitude towards God for the pass 2 years.
But this Christmas, i want to start all over, i want to find that fire that was once burning deep within my heart. I want to run back to you God. N leave everything in your hands once again..
That year, i was in form 3, remember i followed Leslie to his church(Wesley Kepong Methodist Church), during the World Cup 2002 party. Couldn't remember which teams were playing that night, but it was the finals. The church bought a brand new TV n let us all watched from the TV before it was auctioned out right after the match. N i was there as one of the friends invited by church members. I wasn't a Christian yet.
Since form 1, i had been joining CF-Christian Fellowship. You know the kind of activities u have in school after friday's classes. I still remember both the name of the teachers who worked for the establishment of our school's CF which is still not approved in school till today. They are the ones who invited me to CF. They are the ones who opened my eyes to a new world. They are the ones who gave me the option to choose a new way of living life.
That week, we had a movie session, it was in the APD room where they played a video portraying the life of Jesus. How Jesus came into the world, how he healed many, preached and taught the disciples, how he was crucified and rose again on the third day. After that movie, one of the teachers asked us to bow our heads with our eyes shut. Then she asked for those who choose to believe in Him, to raise their hands. I raised mine. One week after that, i received my first bible which i still keep with me. N if u flip to the 1st page of the bible, u'll see two names on it--Mdm Chu Siew Mei, and Ms Goh Suzie. N i wanna thank you deep down from my heart. Thank you.
I started reading the bible, but not for long, and i didn't continue participating in CF after some time. Until form 3, i followed Leslie to church for a couple of times. Then there were some tragedy that happened to my family. N we told ourselves, now is the time. Me n my whole family got baptized that Christmas in church. Of course during the course of deciding to accept Christ into our lives was difficult and complicating. It took us about 4 months to actually say "I'm ready Lord!!" N many helped us during that period of time. N this i must give honor to Leslie and his family. A sincere appreciation for all that they have done for us. Thank you.
Now, i have been a Christian for 4 years.. In this 4 years time, i must admit, this period of time is the farthest i find myself from God. Been carrying the luke-warm attitude towards God for the pass 2 years.
But this Christmas, i want to start all over, i want to find that fire that was once burning deep within my heart. I want to run back to you God. N leave everything in your hands once again..
Updates
Its been a while since i last updated. Not that busy actually, but just reluctant to post. So here's a summary of what i did the previous days.
Last Friday, went to One U with sis. It's been half a year since i stepped into a theater i think. Caught a movie n shopped for the rest of the day. Then later that night, went to spicy n meet up with the after-stpmers. Couldn't believe that they actually forget to pick up MK. What a joke. Anyway, we went back and picked her up after discussing n arguing among ourselves for some time. (Pointing fingers and blaming each other for the mistake. Also, came up with methods n stories to cover up) Of cuz, in the end we didnt tell her the truth... NOPE!! I DIDN'T LIE!! I just didn't talk!!
N it all started from that night after mamak. They decided to bunk into another friend's house. Reason? Mahjong session!!! It's been quite some time since the last time i played. I think it's with them as well, during the previous Chinese new year. N again, I DIDN'T BET!! We were just playing for fun and killing time. Trust me, it's the best economical past time ever. lol.. Went home around 3 that night. Tiring day.
Next day, went to One U again with them. Window shopping mainly. Then at 2 plus, back to mahjong session!! sigh.. Addicted d.. Then mom had food poisoning since the previous night, didn't wanna c doc at 1st. However, we finally made her change her mind. So drove her to the clinic that night. Glad that it's nothing serious.
Den it's Sunday, church in the morning, nap from noon till evening.. dined and accompany sis to her uni to check her results. Lazy to elaborate, but she had a tragedy with her results, got D+ for one of her paper, which means that she have to resit for it next semester. Only found out this morning that the lecturer left out her paper unmarked. Remarked it and got that settled. So she got an A instead!!
N today, it's monday, basically spent the whole day at home online and tv.. Did nothing much the whole day. N woah.. it's 1.19 am.. which means monday is a past tense now..
It's TUESDAY..
Last Friday, went to One U with sis. It's been half a year since i stepped into a theater i think. Caught a movie n shopped for the rest of the day. Then later that night, went to spicy n meet up with the after-stpmers. Couldn't believe that they actually forget to pick up MK. What a joke. Anyway, we went back and picked her up after discussing n arguing among ourselves for some time. (Pointing fingers and blaming each other for the mistake. Also, came up with methods n stories to cover up) Of cuz, in the end we didnt tell her the truth... NOPE!! I DIDN'T LIE!! I just didn't talk!!
N it all started from that night after mamak. They decided to bunk into another friend's house. Reason? Mahjong session!!! It's been quite some time since the last time i played. I think it's with them as well, during the previous Chinese new year. N again, I DIDN'T BET!! We were just playing for fun and killing time. Trust me, it's the best economical past time ever. lol.. Went home around 3 that night. Tiring day.
Next day, went to One U again with them. Window shopping mainly. Then at 2 plus, back to mahjong session!! sigh.. Addicted d.. Then mom had food poisoning since the previous night, didn't wanna c doc at 1st. However, we finally made her change her mind. So drove her to the clinic that night. Glad that it's nothing serious.
Den it's Sunday, church in the morning, nap from noon till evening.. dined and accompany sis to her uni to check her results. Lazy to elaborate, but she had a tragedy with her results, got D+ for one of her paper, which means that she have to resit for it next semester. Only found out this morning that the lecturer left out her paper unmarked. Remarked it and got that settled. So she got an A instead!!
N today, it's monday, basically spent the whole day at home online and tv.. Did nothing much the whole day. N woah.. it's 1.19 am.. which means monday is a past tense now..
It's TUESDAY..
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Humanzee?
I've heard of Chimpanzee. But never once "Humanzee" till i turned on the TV today. On discovery channel.
There's this half chimpanzee half human creature called Oliver. He has got 47 chromosomes which is in between of human(46) and chimpanzee(48). Puzzled. Did God made a mistake?? Or the devil added one extra chromosome on it?
Or perhaps, as i've always said,
GOD is CREATIVE!!
There's this half chimpanzee half human creature called Oliver. He has got 47 chromosomes which is in between of human(46) and chimpanzee(48). Puzzled. Did God made a mistake?? Or the devil added one extra chromosome on it?
Or perhaps, as i've always said,
GOD is CREATIVE!!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
My Woof Woof (s)..
I know i'm supposed to post about the 2nd n 3rd day of famosa trip as promised. However, i'm lazy!! Yes.. And i don't feeel like blogging bout the trip too. Cuz i have something better to blog about now. It's my woof woof!! So i guess i have to delay the blog about the trip then.
When i was 11, i got my first Woof Woof...
This is my family's first pet dog, Bruno. He was obedient, smart, stout, handsome, agile, and has his own temper and character. Since then, he became the center of attention of my family. Brought him to many places including the park opposite my house, lake garden, playgrounds and others which i couldn't quite recall anymore. He loves swimming too, so at times, we'll bring him to the river opposite my house and watch him play with the water.
This was taken in Lake Garden. And yes, that young boy there is none other than ME!!
When he was young, he's so small he can even sit on my lap!!
Here's some pic of him playing with his favorite ball and bone!!
(Sorry for the quality of the pics. They are in film form. The old kind!! So it's kinda blur.)
Then one day, he started falling ill, skipped most of his meal. And finally, when i woke up on a sunday morning, he was already lying still on the porch. Burried him nearby my housing estate. It was 2002 and i was in form 3 that year.
Then, in year 2004, 2nd Woof Woof came into my life. My 2nd pet dog...
Rover!!!
Rover's everything the opposite of Bruno. He's gentle and baby-like, friendly, overweight... But he's an obedient dog too. He understand simple commands like sit, hand, pick the ball, go, come, down, and also drink water. He'll be following you closely and nudge you everytime you walk into the porch. Unlike Bruno, he's like a kid that doesn't care bout cleanliness at all cuz he likes to play with water so much so that he's always wet and messy. One thing i must mention is his saliva, it's always THICK!!! Pekat and sticky!! And my skin is allergic to his saliva which means i can play less with him. Cuz everytime his saliva lands on my hand, i'll have rashes and it itches for quite a long time.
Here's another pic of this boy. Too bad, when he was young, we didn't take any pictures with him. The only picture taken is with my 0.3 Megapixel cam phone, which can no way be transfered to my laptop.
Lastly, Pc fair started on Friday-Sunday(1st-3rd Dec). Missed the first day. But made it there today(saturday) with sis!! Bought something i wanted for a long time--->
Yeah!! A Woofer!!
This is Edifier M3300!!
A subwoofer and two satelite speaker!!
N this... is the third Woof Woof in my life...
When i was 11, i got my first Woof Woof...
This is my family's first pet dog, Bruno. He was obedient, smart, stout, handsome, agile, and has his own temper and character. Since then, he became the center of attention of my family. Brought him to many places including the park opposite my house, lake garden, playgrounds and others which i couldn't quite recall anymore. He loves swimming too, so at times, we'll bring him to the river opposite my house and watch him play with the water.
This was taken in Lake Garden. And yes, that young boy there is none other than ME!!
When he was young, he's so small he can even sit on my lap!!
Here's some pic of him playing with his favorite ball and bone!!
(Sorry for the quality of the pics. They are in film form. The old kind!! So it's kinda blur.)
Then one day, he started falling ill, skipped most of his meal. And finally, when i woke up on a sunday morning, he was already lying still on the porch. Burried him nearby my housing estate. It was 2002 and i was in form 3 that year.
Then, in year 2004, 2nd Woof Woof came into my life. My 2nd pet dog...
Rover!!!
Rover's everything the opposite of Bruno. He's gentle and baby-like, friendly, overweight... But he's an obedient dog too. He understand simple commands like sit, hand, pick the ball, go, come, down, and also drink water. He'll be following you closely and nudge you everytime you walk into the porch. Unlike Bruno, he's like a kid that doesn't care bout cleanliness at all cuz he likes to play with water so much so that he's always wet and messy. One thing i must mention is his saliva, it's always THICK!!! Pekat and sticky!! And my skin is allergic to his saliva which means i can play less with him. Cuz everytime his saliva lands on my hand, i'll have rashes and it itches for quite a long time.
Here's another pic of this boy. Too bad, when he was young, we didn't take any pictures with him. The only picture taken is with my 0.3 Megapixel cam phone, which can no way be transfered to my laptop.
Lastly, Pc fair started on Friday-Sunday(1st-3rd Dec). Missed the first day. But made it there today(saturday) with sis!! Bought something i wanted for a long time--->
Yeah!! A Woofer!!
This is Edifier M3300!!
A subwoofer and two satelite speaker!!
N this... is the third Woof Woof in my life...
Friday, December 01, 2006
Day1 of Famosa trip.
Went to A'famosa resort on monday till wed. It was a superb HOT-liday!! Since i'm lazy to blog bout such long trips as usual, but to not dissapoint many, i decided to post bout it separately each day. So i'll start with Day#1.
Day 1
We(11 of us) gathered in Pudu at 930am, and waited patiently for our bus at 1030am. The bus was supposed to drop us in Tampin, where we can have our next bus/cab ride into the resort. However, the bastard driver dropped us by the roadside instead. Mind you, it's 12 noon, n what u expect? HOT SUN!!! We walked for a mile or two and found a roadside food store, an old woman was there and we asked for help. Suddenly, few uncles came by, said they can drive us into the resort. Of cuz, we have to pay!! So there goes RM40 for the 2 uncles. Not sure whether it's our gud fortune or theirs.
Then, from the hotel lobby, we took a ride with the what called "banana-truck" to the condos. Booked our condo, dropped our luggage at the office since it's not check in time yet, changed to our swimming attire and off we go to the Waterworld!!
Too bad, Waterworld ain't that big a world compared to Sunway Lagoon. With no more than 5-6 types of rides/slides, a not-that-big wave pool, and a few expensive restaurants, that's the whole of our Waterworld. Had some fun with the slides though, and also the pool where all of us tried to hold on to the limited tube we rented and formed a platform in the middle of the pool. Too bad my cam was in the locker throughout the waterworld session, will upload some pics taken by Chong and Jiamin's Cam when i get it.
Went back and checked in our Condo then. The condo damn spacious and nice. After bath that evening, dinner time came. We basically went through all of the restaurants available there including in the hotel and cowboy town. Calculated the cost per person-->RM40!! Walau eh!! Eat gold a? End up, 4 of us took a cab down to tampin town, found a hawker stall and tapao-ed back for everyone. Each pack only cost about RM5. Also, while waiting for the food, we went over to 7-11, bought 2 loads of bread, 5 tunas, 20 meecups, one big bottle of mineral water and some junks. Ohya, we also bought poker cards. It's just the normal cards you get for free from MAS and hotels, no naked lady on the back of each card also, but it cost us RM6.60!!
That night, after dinner, the casino begins... As usual, our "dou hao"(Queen of Gamblers) Pinky won all!! Finally, we went to bed after loosing all our money. LOL..
Pics
From top to bottom:
1)Our luggage while we're waiting in Pudu Station.
2)Registering at the Condominium Lobby.
3)Melvin waiting for the rest to bath in condo.
4)The condo opposite us(taken from balcony).
5)4/5 of the gals(Tee Hooi wasn't in).
6)ALMOST all of us at the entrance of Cowboy Town(Chong n I was holding the cam).
7)Streets of Cowboy Town.
8)Us and the Banana Truck!
9)GAMBLE!!!
Pics on waterworld shall be uploaded later.
End of Day1.
Day 1
We(11 of us) gathered in Pudu at 930am, and waited patiently for our bus at 1030am. The bus was supposed to drop us in Tampin, where we can have our next bus/cab ride into the resort. However, the bastard driver dropped us by the roadside instead. Mind you, it's 12 noon, n what u expect? HOT SUN!!! We walked for a mile or two and found a roadside food store, an old woman was there and we asked for help. Suddenly, few uncles came by, said they can drive us into the resort. Of cuz, we have to pay!! So there goes RM40 for the 2 uncles. Not sure whether it's our gud fortune or theirs.
Then, from the hotel lobby, we took a ride with the what called "banana-truck" to the condos. Booked our condo, dropped our luggage at the office since it's not check in time yet, changed to our swimming attire and off we go to the Waterworld!!
Too bad, Waterworld ain't that big a world compared to Sunway Lagoon. With no more than 5-6 types of rides/slides, a not-that-big wave pool, and a few expensive restaurants, that's the whole of our Waterworld. Had some fun with the slides though, and also the pool where all of us tried to hold on to the limited tube we rented and formed a platform in the middle of the pool. Too bad my cam was in the locker throughout the waterworld session, will upload some pics taken by Chong and Jiamin's Cam when i get it.
Went back and checked in our Condo then. The condo damn spacious and nice. After bath that evening, dinner time came. We basically went through all of the restaurants available there including in the hotel and cowboy town. Calculated the cost per person-->RM40!! Walau eh!! Eat gold a? End up, 4 of us took a cab down to tampin town, found a hawker stall and tapao-ed back for everyone. Each pack only cost about RM5. Also, while waiting for the food, we went over to 7-11, bought 2 loads of bread, 5 tunas, 20 meecups, one big bottle of mineral water and some junks. Ohya, we also bought poker cards. It's just the normal cards you get for free from MAS and hotels, no naked lady on the back of each card also, but it cost us RM6.60!!
That night, after dinner, the casino begins... As usual, our "dou hao"(Queen of Gamblers) Pinky won all!! Finally, we went to bed after loosing all our money. LOL..
Pics
From top to bottom:
1)Our luggage while we're waiting in Pudu Station.
2)Registering at the Condominium Lobby.
3)Melvin waiting for the rest to bath in condo.
4)The condo opposite us(taken from balcony).
5)4/5 of the gals(Tee Hooi wasn't in).
6)ALMOST all of us at the entrance of Cowboy Town(Chong n I was holding the cam).
7)Streets of Cowboy Town.
8)Us and the Banana Truck!
9)GAMBLE!!!
Pics on waterworld shall be uploaded later.
End of Day1.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Day1 of Break.
Actual plan b4 i went to bed last nite is to wake up at 830 this morning, then go for breakfast at a wantan mee restaurant near my house. However, when i finally got up today, the clock reads 1030pm. N for those who doesn't know, the wantan mee is a very popular one, which means only the early bird gets to eat, n 1030 is certainly not considered early here. So there goes my breakfast, however, sis is kind enough to offer me breakfast. Sandwich and milo she offered, i said nope. Then she tot for a while n asked:"Mango?" I nodded n she smiled. So, mango was what it turned out to be my breakfast today.
Then as i watched some crap movies on tv, time passed n it's around 12 now. Sis asked if i want anything for lunch. I said McD. She looked at me and offered:"McD? Or maybe you want pizza?" I smiled. Yes, i would prefer pizza over McD today. Lunch settled.
Around 2, after i had my lunch, i went straight back to bed. Slept the whole afternoon till 630pm. Kinda hibernated. Went to bath after that. And here comes the gross part, i realised i haven't brush teeth the whole morning. haha.. Funny. i actually forget about it. Don't worry mates, i don't forget brushing teeth that frequent!!
Had my dinner at one of the nice nice shop which serves edible food unlike UTP. Had an ice-blended lemonlime drink. Chill n nice. These are the things that UTP doesn't offer. So when i have the chance to get it, i'll make sure i do so.
On another note, Irene ajak to mamak tonite n said will confirm the timing with me. So i kinda waited for her call and rejected mom's supper offer. She messaged me at 1130pm saying that our mamak plan is cancelled. OH MY GOD!! I see the Nasi Lemak n Roti Canai flew away from me. N my favorite iced lemon tea too. Sweat.
So Irene, if u happen to read this, next mamak will be on u!!
Then as i watched some crap movies on tv, time passed n it's around 12 now. Sis asked if i want anything for lunch. I said McD. She looked at me and offered:"McD? Or maybe you want pizza?" I smiled. Yes, i would prefer pizza over McD today. Lunch settled.
Around 2, after i had my lunch, i went straight back to bed. Slept the whole afternoon till 630pm. Kinda hibernated. Went to bath after that. And here comes the gross part, i realised i haven't brush teeth the whole morning. haha.. Funny. i actually forget about it. Don't worry mates, i don't forget brushing teeth that frequent!!
Had my dinner at one of the nice nice shop which serves edible food unlike UTP. Had an ice-blended lemonlime drink. Chill n nice. These are the things that UTP doesn't offer. So when i have the chance to get it, i'll make sure i do so.
On another note, Irene ajak to mamak tonite n said will confirm the timing with me. So i kinda waited for her call and rejected mom's supper offer. She messaged me at 1130pm saying that our mamak plan is cancelled. OH MY GOD!! I see the Nasi Lemak n Roti Canai flew away from me. N my favorite iced lemon tea too. Sweat.
So Irene, if u happen to read this, next mamak will be on u!!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Final day of examination!!
Alright. 3 more hours to the final paper - Circuit Theory. Then another 3 hours more, n i'll finally be free!!
Time flies, the day we walk out of SPM examination hall is still like yesterday, but now most of my friends are sitting for stpm examination currently and i'll finish my 1st sem of degree today.
Have been meditating on this book for the past 3-4 days. Came up with this Programming Code last few days:
if(strcpy(mybrain,textbook)==1 && fprintf(answerbooklet,"%s",mybrain)==1)
{fprintf(resultslip,"4.0");}
else
{fprintf(resultslip,"FAIL");}
so i hope it's not ELSE la..
anyway, to all EE students, gud luck in the final battle, and have an enjoyable holiday!!
Time flies, the day we walk out of SPM examination hall is still like yesterday, but now most of my friends are sitting for stpm examination currently and i'll finish my 1st sem of degree today.
Have been meditating on this book for the past 3-4 days. Came up with this Programming Code last few days:
if(strcpy(mybrain,textbook)==1 && fprintf(answerbooklet,"%s",mybrain)==1)
{fprintf(resultslip,"4.0");}
else
{fprintf(resultslip,"FAIL");}
so i hope it's not ELSE la..
anyway, to all EE students, gud luck in the final battle, and have an enjoyable holiday!!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
10 years from now...
Having moral paper tomorrow. But i'm kinda bored of studying. So i'm back here...
Just wondering.. in 10 years time...
Will i be like this??
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I hope not...
Ok.. Back to studies...
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
I'm a Married Lady!!
Yesterday night when i was studying half way, i received a sms..
1st thought that came to my mind is a picture of someone standing on the rooftop of some apartment with a bottle of beer in his hand and a phone on the other. In great dissapointment in life, he sent out three msges to random recipients. If anyone of them replied the right answer, he will stay on this journey of life, otherwise, he'll appear as the headlines in newspapers tomorrow. So out of sympathy and a little bit of curiousity, i replied.
Then after about 3 minutes, i get this reply..
Sigh of relief.. And so i left my phone in the drawer as usual thought that that's the end of this ridiculous smses. Went out to my friends room to crap for a while. And when i came back to my room, i checked on my phone and it reads
"1 new message"
So i clicked on it and guess what? Here it goes...
1st thought that came to my mind is a picture of someone standing on the rooftop of some apartment with a bottle of beer in his hand and a phone on the other. In great dissapointment in life, he sent out three msges to random recipients. If anyone of them replied the right answer, he will stay on this journey of life, otherwise, he'll appear as the headlines in newspapers tomorrow. So out of sympathy and a little bit of curiousity, i replied.
Then after about 3 minutes, i get this reply..
Sigh of relief.. And so i left my phone in the drawer as usual thought that that's the end of this ridiculous smses. Went out to my friends room to crap for a while. And when i came back to my room, i checked on my phone and it reads
"1 new message"
So i clicked on it and guess what? Here it goes...
I wonder...
I've seen so many different people in my life. So many different type of thinkings. And i often wonder how can people be so different in so many ways. God must be a real creative creator i guess. One of the topics i often ponder upon is love and coupling.
Since i've came to UTP, i've seen so many people coupled up even since 1st sem, and some made it till now, but most of them didn't. And those who broke up, found themselves a new partner soon enough to fall in love again. Things seems so easy for them.
I seriously wonder whether people coupled up for the fun of having a relationship or they really are in love with one another. But if you were to pick any couple and ask, why they are coupling up in the 1st place. They'll answer you--->LOVE,DUH~~ And they'll certainly give you the dumb looking face like they are actually re-evaluating your mentality for asking them such a simple question with a simple answer. So i assume all couples couple up because of LOVE.
But is this really love? Is love something so fragile and so insignificant that you are able to get into a relationship so easily and yet forget about the same person u "loved" once so quickly? It's not hard to find teenagers with more than 5 past relations in their 20 years or so of lifetime nowadays. Is this considered normal? Is this what it is supposed to be like for everyone?
For me, i am never used to committing myself in a relationship that easily. I always believe that a relationship only starts when both of you are really in love with one another and has gone through enough to prove that. Certainly not something that you "play-play" and throw away when you're done. Also, a friend of mine said this-"ganqing ke yi pei yang de" in mandarin. Which literally means, love can be nurtured through time. If you haven't get the meaning of this statement yet, let me make it straight for you. It means that, u can go to any night club or even shopping malls, see any hot chicks u like, walk up to them, flirt with them, bring them home and make them your girl. What about the love and feelings? Well, don't worry about that, it can be NURTURED SLOWLY THROUGH TIME!!! Impressing right?
However, back to me, i've been holding up and keeping this "sacred place" in my heart for the upcoming QUEEN which is yet to be identified. And with this thinking, i certainly wants the best candidate as my QUEEN. And so, i've unconsciously set a bar so high that i measure it with Ms Malaysia and still she's an inch shorter from the mark. And i guess that's why i'm still single today!! lol..
Not that i am desperate to get a girl or what not, it's just that seeing people making out and breaking up and making out AGAIN and breaking up AGAIN makes me wonder. Am i the one who's abnormal here or is it them? Why am i trying so hard to keep the "sacred place" as holy as it can be while others can even fit two in it at the same time? Should i be like them? or should they be like me?
Or maybe according to the theory of compromising, both "them" and i should blend our thoughts where we take half from each side and make them one. So now, the bar is much lower but at least the "sacred place" exist in their life too. Is this the way?
Since i've came to UTP, i've seen so many people coupled up even since 1st sem, and some made it till now, but most of them didn't. And those who broke up, found themselves a new partner soon enough to fall in love again. Things seems so easy for them.
I seriously wonder whether people coupled up for the fun of having a relationship or they really are in love with one another. But if you were to pick any couple and ask, why they are coupling up in the 1st place. They'll answer you--->LOVE,DUH~~ And they'll certainly give you the dumb looking face like they are actually re-evaluating your mentality for asking them such a simple question with a simple answer. So i assume all couples couple up because of LOVE.
But is this really love? Is love something so fragile and so insignificant that you are able to get into a relationship so easily and yet forget about the same person u "loved" once so quickly? It's not hard to find teenagers with more than 5 past relations in their 20 years or so of lifetime nowadays. Is this considered normal? Is this what it is supposed to be like for everyone?
For me, i am never used to committing myself in a relationship that easily. I always believe that a relationship only starts when both of you are really in love with one another and has gone through enough to prove that. Certainly not something that you "play-play" and throw away when you're done. Also, a friend of mine said this-"ganqing ke yi pei yang de" in mandarin. Which literally means, love can be nurtured through time. If you haven't get the meaning of this statement yet, let me make it straight for you. It means that, u can go to any night club or even shopping malls, see any hot chicks u like, walk up to them, flirt with them, bring them home and make them your girl. What about the love and feelings? Well, don't worry about that, it can be NURTURED SLOWLY THROUGH TIME!!! Impressing right?
However, back to me, i've been holding up and keeping this "sacred place" in my heart for the upcoming QUEEN which is yet to be identified. And with this thinking, i certainly wants the best candidate as my QUEEN. And so, i've unconsciously set a bar so high that i measure it with Ms Malaysia and still she's an inch shorter from the mark. And i guess that's why i'm still single today!! lol..
Not that i am desperate to get a girl or what not, it's just that seeing people making out and breaking up and making out AGAIN and breaking up AGAIN makes me wonder. Am i the one who's abnormal here or is it them? Why am i trying so hard to keep the "sacred place" as holy as it can be while others can even fit two in it at the same time? Should i be like them? or should they be like me?
Or maybe according to the theory of compromising, both "them" and i should blend our thoughts where we take half from each side and make them one. So now, the bar is much lower but at least the "sacred place" exist in their life too. Is this the way?
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Dooms day!!
2 more days to Finals. It was only a week ago when i told myself that i must really study during the study week. I must this, i must that. Well, that high spirit did accompany me for the 1st few days. When it reached the 3rd or 4th day of study week, i kinda get fed up with studying.
The nearer it gets to exam, the more reluctant i am to study. For the past few days, all i do is sleep late, wake up late, chat, gossip, or just simply lazing and walking around.
The week before study week, i actually started banning myself from all com games. Everyday, my roomie will be playing his newly installed games- Hitman, Fear, Battlefield2142, NeedForSpeed-MostWanted, Godfather just to name a few, and i'll be like forcing my eyes back to the books i displayed in front of me.
However, i finally gave up, took the battlefield installer dvd and there she goes, nicely installed in my laptop and can be easily accessed anytime i want to.
And talking bout sports game. Have been hyperactive lately. Went for basketball almost every alternate day. Even went jogging with Lenis just now. Crap. Went out around 530pm and jogged all the way to new V5, then spotted Fuhan sitting all by himself in the cafe. Went over, said hi to him, extorted money from him and happily bought a can of Pringles. Our jogging plan end up became an eating fest. Accompanied Fuhan and talked crap till Nancy came back. It was already 7 when we came back to our rooms. Anyway, back to my point... I wasn't studying!!
I mean what am i doing man.. It's study week, and people or even the gods are all cutting their eating time, sleeping time, talking time, shitting time perhaps just for the sake of squeezing another page of information from the textbook to their brains. And look at me.. Wasting whatever time that i have not studying but playing and relaxing.
Some of my friends will tell me that i don't need to study anymore, that i can answer even if i don't study.. But seriously i know, there are so many topics yet to be covered, so many past year papers staring at me, so many questions yet to be answered...
I know,
I'm doomed..
The nearer it gets to exam, the more reluctant i am to study. For the past few days, all i do is sleep late, wake up late, chat, gossip, or just simply lazing and walking around.
The week before study week, i actually started banning myself from all com games. Everyday, my roomie will be playing his newly installed games- Hitman, Fear, Battlefield2142, NeedForSpeed-MostWanted, Godfather just to name a few, and i'll be like forcing my eyes back to the books i displayed in front of me.
However, i finally gave up, took the battlefield installer dvd and there she goes, nicely installed in my laptop and can be easily accessed anytime i want to.
And talking bout sports game. Have been hyperactive lately. Went for basketball almost every alternate day. Even went jogging with Lenis just now. Crap. Went out around 530pm and jogged all the way to new V5, then spotted Fuhan sitting all by himself in the cafe. Went over, said hi to him, extorted money from him and happily bought a can of Pringles. Our jogging plan end up became an eating fest. Accompanied Fuhan and talked crap till Nancy came back. It was already 7 when we came back to our rooms. Anyway, back to my point... I wasn't studying!!
I mean what am i doing man.. It's study week, and people or even the gods are all cutting their eating time, sleeping time, talking time, shitting time perhaps just for the sake of squeezing another page of information from the textbook to their brains. And look at me.. Wasting whatever time that i have not studying but playing and relaxing.
Some of my friends will tell me that i don't need to study anymore, that i can answer even if i don't study.. But seriously i know, there are so many topics yet to be covered, so many past year papers staring at me, so many questions yet to be answered...
I know,
I'm doomed..
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
断了的弦
断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨
我沉默你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么不说
哎哟我笑后
表情终于有点难过握着你的手
问你决定了再走
我突然释怀的笑笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下的掉说会记住我的好
我也弯着我嘴角笑
你的美已经给了谁
追了又追我要不回
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢
断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出茧
还是无法留你在我身边
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨
我沉默你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么不说
哎哟我笑后
表情终于有点难过握着你的手
问你决定了再走
我突然释怀的笑笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下的掉说会记住我的好
我也弯着我嘴角笑
你的美已经给了谁
追了又追我要不回
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢
断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出茧
还是无法留你在我身边
Friday, November 03, 2006
Jia Min Blogged about me!!
Jia Min blogged about me in her recent post.
Erm.. maybe i didn't make myself clear enough. So i'll say this again. Ehehehemm... everybody~~~
JIA MIN BLOGGED ABOUT ME!!!!
She didn't just blogged about me. She praised me in her bloggie until i flew up to the sky and planned to stay there for the rest of my life. Luckily i miss my Rover so much that i came down to earth again to see him.
However, i'm curious what on earth have i done to make her blog about all these suddenly. I mean she usually tease me and say bad things bout me. Dunno why suddenly change d?
Anyway, i'm so PROUD~~ i "kena puji"!! Wah.. and u see the pic!! She says that i'm GOOD LOOKING~~~
wah.. fly~~
Erm.. maybe i didn't make myself clear enough. So i'll say this again. Ehehehemm... everybody~~~
JIA MIN BLOGGED ABOUT ME!!!!
She didn't just blogged about me. She praised me in her bloggie until i flew up to the sky and planned to stay there for the rest of my life. Luckily i miss my Rover so much that i came down to earth again to see him.
However, i'm curious what on earth have i done to make her blog about all these suddenly. I mean she usually tease me and say bad things bout me. Dunno why suddenly change d?
Anyway, i'm so PROUD~~ i "kena puji"!! Wah.. and u see the pic!! She says that i'm GOOD LOOKING~~~
wah.. fly~~
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
When you are not around..
-Structured Programming Test
-Differential Equation Assignment
-Moral Studies Presentation
-Technical and Professional Writing Test
-FINAL EXAMINATION(counting down 14 days)
Finals is always stressful for me.
With this load of task to be accomplished before finals, i'm pretty sure i'll look like zombie by the time all these end.
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You said it last night. I thought i was prepared for that since i've expected it since months ago.
But I wasn't afterall.
I wasn't.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Borland C++
The haze getting worse this few days. Kinda fell sick yesterday. Was trying to undersstand more about file writing and reading with Borland c++. Then suddenly have this idea to create a programme which encrypt messages and one more to decode it. Realising it's useful as i can blog with the encrypted version now n complain more as others will no be able to see it. Only those whom i give the decrypting programme will be able to read. Wakakaka.. can complain more now!!
And so here's an encrypted message which i wrote last night:
g*c * a*c ekt snc*x, rmddyhmf *mc rmddyhmf, mn o*r*q l*k*l? mn rpt*rg? mn a*rjdsa*kk? rjhoodc lddshmf,, ats l*m*fdc sn bnld nts vhsg sghr dmbqxoshnm, Il rn bkdudq.. g*g*,,ohmjx a*j* r*qd.. h knud jk kdmf kthr.... xd*g,, ehm*kkx fns eqddcnl sn r*x c..
And so here's an encrypted message which i wrote last night:
g*c * a*c ekt snc*x, rmddyhmf *mc rmddyhmf, mn o*r*q l*k*l? mn rpt*rg? mn a*rjdsa*kk? rjhoodc lddshmf,, ats l*m*fdc sn bnld nts vhsg sghr dmbqxoshnm, Il rn bkdudq.. g*g*,,ohmjx a*j* r*qd.. h knud jk kdmf kthr.... xd*g,, ehm*kkx fns eqddcnl sn r*x c..
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Uni Lecturers sucks!
Haven't been blogging lately due to the slow internet connection. Just got better yesterday. So here am i.
Have been pretty busy lately. Assignments and test date are eating up space in my personal organiser.
This morning i got back my Technical n Professional Writing Assignment. Before giving out the assignments, my dear "We're-in-outcome-based-learning-system-and-this-is-university" or "i'm-merely-here-to-guide-you" lecturer, said:"The marks on the top right corner is the raw score and also the final marks for your final exam, since this is out of 15 marks and it carries a 15% weightage in your finals!"
It's an assignment where we're supposed to identify a problem in UTP, and find a relevant article about this issue. Then based on this article, do an outline and a memo to adress this problem to our programme head.
So my friends get their assignments back one by one scoring 14 most of them.
"Benny and Sam!"
I went out and collected mine. Shocked!
11/15!!
Cruel!! Before submitting, we even went to see her twice to check if there's any error or if she have any comments. And every single question i ask, she'll be more of holding back then answering.
"Well, if u think this is best, then by all means carry on!"
"There's no right or wrong answer, It's all up to the writer which is you!"
"It's up to you! Look at the text book for reference."
And honestly, i followed every single detail in the text book because that's the only hint that she gave us. And see what happened? In the end, she took away 4 marks even before i sit for my finals!! And her reason? The article you chose to summarise is too long! WTF?? You penalise me not based on my summary but based on the length of article that i chose?
Then she went on and said my outline doesn't represent my article well. Why? Because the article there's this heading that reads Biological mechanism, and she couldn't find it in my outline.
WTF(again)?! In the article, under the section of Biological mechanism, it talks about obesity and how is obesity caused by softdrink. My title is softdrinks are bad for health. And there are other problems caused by softdrinks mentioned in the article. So i sum these problems together and put these under Problems heading as a subtopic as OVERWEIGHT.
And she's telling me this is wrong because it doesn't represents the article!? My question is this, do u evaluate based on the one line headings? or the main part of the article which is the content? I said to her that i change the headings because i want to sum all these problems up and overweight is a better and clearer word than Biological mechanism. She asked me, "Then why do you choose this article where theidiotic writer label it's headings as Biological mechanism?"
WTF(again^2)?! Because the writer is dumb????!!! i din say that, instead i said, "Because the writer wrote it for a more technical group of people which understand the term biological mechanism better? And i'm writing it for a more general group of people which lack understanding of technical terms." She's kind of speechless and just ignoring by saying" you chose the wrong article."
Then she says "Your outline should represent the article fully. It should be a backbone of the article. For example if i take your bones out, i should still put it in a correct structure where your head is on top and legs at the bottom."
"Ok, let me give you an example, if you look at this Projector screen here, what's the outline of it?" Both me and sam gave her a blur look. then she continues "What's it's shape for example?"
Sam said"rectangular. "Then she gives a surprised look and say "no, it's square!!" then she turned around and look at the screen again, and realizing it's not that squared either she said "Well it might not be square because it's not exactly the same length each side, but still..."
I interrupted "you see, it all depends on how you see it isn't it?"
I guess she might feel a little embarrased by her own example which turn out to prove her wrong. However, she didn't show it, and that's what you call PROFESSIONAL!
She continued and said "I understand your point but i disagree"
Geez, feel like banging my head on the wall. If you understand then why disagree? Sensing that she isn't going to give in, i reluctantly gave up on arguing. I just kept my mouth shut and nod all the way through.
The moral lesson of the story: Appreciate your school teacher well even if they shout or yell at you. Because when u come into Uni, leturers smile at you, talk nicely to you. they'll never shout or yell! And if you have any problems and need seek for their opinion, all they'll say is "go ahead, go on, if you think it's right then proceed" and let you walk on the wrong path till you fall. And when u finally realise the mistake, it's already too late and you can do nothing about it other than blogging about it like me!!
Have been pretty busy lately. Assignments and test date are eating up space in my personal organiser.
This morning i got back my Technical n Professional Writing Assignment. Before giving out the assignments, my dear "We're-in-outcome-based-learning-system-and-this-is-university" or "i'm-merely-here-to-guide-you" lecturer, said:"The marks on the top right corner is the raw score and also the final marks for your final exam, since this is out of 15 marks and it carries a 15% weightage in your finals!"
It's an assignment where we're supposed to identify a problem in UTP, and find a relevant article about this issue. Then based on this article, do an outline and a memo to adress this problem to our programme head.
So my friends get their assignments back one by one scoring 14 most of them.
"Benny and Sam!"
I went out and collected mine. Shocked!
11/15!!
Cruel!! Before submitting, we even went to see her twice to check if there's any error or if she have any comments. And every single question i ask, she'll be more of holding back then answering.
"Well, if u think this is best, then by all means carry on!"
"There's no right or wrong answer, It's all up to the writer which is you!"
"It's up to you! Look at the text book for reference."
And honestly, i followed every single detail in the text book because that's the only hint that she gave us. And see what happened? In the end, she took away 4 marks even before i sit for my finals!! And her reason? The article you chose to summarise is too long! WTF?? You penalise me not based on my summary but based on the length of article that i chose?
Then she went on and said my outline doesn't represent my article well. Why? Because the article there's this heading that reads Biological mechanism, and she couldn't find it in my outline.
WTF(again)?! In the article, under the section of Biological mechanism, it talks about obesity and how is obesity caused by softdrink. My title is softdrinks are bad for health. And there are other problems caused by softdrinks mentioned in the article. So i sum these problems together and put these under Problems heading as a subtopic as OVERWEIGHT.
And she's telling me this is wrong because it doesn't represents the article!? My question is this, do u evaluate based on the one line headings? or the main part of the article which is the content? I said to her that i change the headings because i want to sum all these problems up and overweight is a better and clearer word than Biological mechanism. She asked me, "Then why do you choose this article where the
WTF(again^2)?! Because the writer is dumb????!!! i din say that, instead i said, "Because the writer wrote it for a more technical group of people which understand the term biological mechanism better? And i'm writing it for a more general group of people which lack understanding of technical terms." She's kind of speechless and just ignoring by saying" you chose the wrong article."
Then she says "Your outline should represent the article fully. It should be a backbone of the article. For example if i take your bones out, i should still put it in a correct structure where your head is on top and legs at the bottom."
"Ok, let me give you an example, if you look at this Projector screen here, what's the outline of it?" Both me and sam gave her a blur look. then she continues "What's it's shape for example?"
Sam said"rectangular. "Then she gives a surprised look and say "no, it's square!!" then she turned around and look at the screen again, and realizing it's not that squared either she said "Well it might not be square because it's not exactly the same length each side, but still..."
I interrupted "you see, it all depends on how you see it isn't it?"
I guess she might feel a little embarrased by her own example which turn out to prove her wrong. However, she didn't show it, and that's what you call PROFESSIONAL!
She continued and said "I understand your point but i disagree"
Geez, feel like banging my head on the wall. If you understand then why disagree? Sensing that she isn't going to give in, i reluctantly gave up on arguing. I just kept my mouth shut and nod all the way through.
The moral lesson of the story: Appreciate your school teacher well even if they shout or yell at you. Because when u come into Uni, leturers smile at you, talk nicely to you. they'll never shout or yell! And if you have any problems and need seek for their opinion, all they'll say is "go ahead, go on, if you think it's right then proceed" and let you walk on the wrong path till you fall. And when u finally realise the mistake, it's already too late and you can do nothing about it other than blogging about it like me!!
Friday, September 29, 2006
INTERVIEWERS READ THIS PLEASE!!!
Due to some commotion, this post has been edited. And i hereby officially apologise for all improper/sensitive/impolite issues being discussed b4. Here's a second version which might give you people something to laugh at, and forget about what i said b4. FORGET...FORGET...FORGET...
Boring.. When will i be able to be back in KL n go 1U c pretty chicks again? Really miss the time when i was working there, can c pretty chicks daily. And chat with pretty customers(chicks of course!!) who come into my VOIR shop. Let people 'liu' n 'liu' people. haha.. Like damn ham sap like that.
Actually what i meant is that life here is really monotonous. Everyday go class then come back do assignment, study and dota. if got some extra time somemore, will go Squash or Basketball. Nothing else.. Last time during Highskul, lots of muimuizhai to kao n to be kao-ed. But now muimuizhai also dunno go where kao didizhai already. Plus my age now c those act-cute-but-not-cute muimuizhai also wanna puke, so no more muimuizhai for me d.
Lets talk bout during working. Remember 3 shops away from the shop i'm working in, got lotsa lengluis working. And we had our breaktime together. Shopped together and stuff. They made ice-cream for me as well. But of cuz, can c that they're those bad-bad-flirtatious-spend-boyfriend-money type of girl. And for some reason they're interested in thenot-that-good-looking-lan-ci-act-cool-but-not-cool type of guys like me. Maybe they're just bored with the bad boys and decided to change their taste for a bit and coincidentally i passed by and they saw me and they decided to flirt around a bit with me. (Gasp for air) However, my point is, i do enjoy hanging out with different people or more accurately said-different girls.
But look at me now. Damn. When i look around me, i can only c two types of guys. 1st is the god-like seniors. 2nd type is the dun-nid-act-cool-already-cool juniors. I wonder. Actually there's a third type of guys, which is my coursemates, they are the-handsome-cute-cool-talented-wuteva-good-things-you-can-think-of type of guys.
I need motivation!! Give me a reason to wake up early in the morning, so that i can dress up nicely because there's someone i would like to impress today. But sad to say, that's not the case, i wake up everyday noticing that no matter how i dress, i'll still be as ugly as ever. Nothing like "dreamguy","Chun guy". I started using these few terms since i came to UTP to praised the guys around me.(Think i'm gonna be bashed up by my mom tomorrow.)
Maybe i should ask dad what's the anti-depression pills he took last time, so i can ask for some from the lousy-and-ineffective UTP clinic myself.
With this, i plead to the panel of interviewers during EDUCAMP, please screen off leng chais from entering UTP anymore!! And i don't even understand why i can come into this uni with such ugly face, and i'm into serious depression. Something has to be done ASAP!!
Boring.. When will i be able to be back in KL n go 1U c pretty chicks again? Really miss the time when i was working there, can c pretty chicks daily. And chat with pretty customers(chicks of course!!) who come into my VOIR shop. Let people 'liu' n 'liu' people. haha.. Like damn ham sap like that.
Actually what i meant is that life here is really monotonous. Everyday go class then come back do assignment, study and dota. if got some extra time somemore, will go Squash or Basketball. Nothing else.. Last time during Highskul, lots of muimuizhai to kao n to be kao-ed. But now muimuizhai also dunno go where kao didizhai already. Plus my age now c those act-cute-but-not-cute muimuizhai also wanna puke, so no more muimuizhai for me d.
Lets talk bout during working. Remember 3 shops away from the shop i'm working in, got lotsa lengluis working. And we had our breaktime together. Shopped together and stuff. They made ice-cream for me as well. But of cuz, can c that they're those bad-bad-flirtatious-spend-boyfriend-money type of girl. And for some reason they're interested in the
But look at me now. Damn. When i look around me, i can only c two types of guys. 1st is the god-like seniors. 2nd type is the dun-nid-act-cool-already-cool juniors. I wonder. Actually there's a third type of guys, which is my coursemates, they are the-handsome-cute-cool-talented-wuteva-good-things-you-can-think-of type of guys.
I need motivation!! Give me a reason to wake up early in the morning, so that i can dress up nicely because there's someone i would like to impress today. But sad to say, that's not the case, i wake up everyday noticing that no matter how i dress, i'll still be as ugly as ever. Nothing like "dreamguy","Chun guy". I started using these few terms since i came to UTP to praised the guys around me.(Think i'm gonna be bashed up by my mom tomorrow.)
Maybe i should ask dad what's the anti-depression pills he took last time, so i can ask for some from the lousy-and-ineffective UTP clinic myself.
With this, i plead to the panel of interviewers during EDUCAMP, please screen off leng chais from entering UTP anymore!! And i don't even understand why i can come into this uni with such ugly face, and i'm into serious depression. Something has to be done ASAP!!
Monday, September 25, 2006
Rubbish!!
Since the aunty-cleaner only comes on weekdays. Our guys hostel is in extremely bad condition during the weekends, especially on sunday nites.
Not to mention the toilet yet(i might post bout that later), just the bin outside my room is horrible. Since Sam do all the tapao business, many of my chinese friends eat in my room and conveniently throw their wuteva-wastage outside my room. So here's a few pictures for you guys to enjoy..
On a side note, the still-in-foundation sarawakian guy just came back from his midterm break(undergrad n foundation break is different by a week) on saturday. So as an unwillingly-welcoming-note for him, here's a pic to share again.
Welcome back!!
Not to mention the toilet yet(i might post bout that later), just the bin outside my room is horrible. Since Sam do all the tapao business, many of my chinese friends eat in my room and conveniently throw their wuteva-wastage outside my room. So here's a few pictures for you guys to enjoy..
On a side note, the still-in-foundation sarawakian guy just came back from his midterm break(undergrad n foundation break is different by a week) on saturday. So as an unwillingly-welcoming-note for him, here's a pic to share again.
Welcome back!!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
1 litre of tears..
Juz as i thought that i've finished all the sad sad movies. I downloaded another jap drama from DC++. It's called <1 Litre of Tears>. It's actually a true story which is written in a form of diary. This diary has sold 18,000,000 copies so far and touches many people around the world(mostly in Japan i think, haha).
15-year-old Ikeuchi Aya was an ordinary girl, the daughter of a family who works at a tofu shop, and a soon-to-be high schooler. However, odd things have been happening to Aya lately. She has been falling down often and walks strange. Her mother, Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?
This drama is by far the most touching one i've ever watched. For those who often go for movie with me should know that i hardly ever cry for movies, but this time, tears just can't stop rolling down throughout this 11 episodes of heart-touching drama. And there's one part where i actually have to stand up and stop myself cuz it's getting so sad that i couldn't stand it. Damn. Didn't know i can get so emo with a movie.
Another must-watch for those who like dramas which potrays real life incidents. Watching this 11 episodes, i can certainly feel the love of Aya's family and friends swarming through the atmosphere. And the courage Aya shown struggling through this 10 years of illness surely made me re-evaluate my own life and purpose of living.
And another reason that makes this drama a must-watch for guys is because it features a really pretty-n-kawaii-type chick--->Erika Sawajiri!!!
Ps: Sammy, when i'm back, will give you this drama, u sure cry gao gao watching it. very touching!!
Ps:To all currently in UTP, anyone of you have the soundtrack for this drama? I like the one they always play when the guy n gal talks. A bit like Jap-style Lifehouse. haha.. Very nice.. Pls give me a copy if u happen to have k? Thanks in advance.
15-year-old Ikeuchi Aya was an ordinary girl, the daughter of a family who works at a tofu shop, and a soon-to-be high schooler. However, odd things have been happening to Aya lately. She has been falling down often and walks strange. Her mother, Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?This drama is by far the most touching one i've ever watched. For those who often go for movie with me should know that i hardly ever cry for movies, but this time, tears just can't stop rolling down throughout this 11 episodes of heart-touching drama. And there's one part where i actually have to stand up and stop myself cuz it's getting so sad that i couldn't stand it. Damn. Didn't know i can get so emo with a movie.
Another must-watch for those who like dramas which potrays real life incidents. Watching this 11 episodes, i can certainly feel the love of Aya's family and friends swarming through the atmosphere. And the courage Aya shown struggling through this 10 years of illness surely made me re-evaluate my own life and purpose of living.
And another reason that makes this drama a must-watch for guys is because it features a really pretty-n-kawaii-type chick--->Erika Sawajiri!!!
Ps: Sammy, when i'm back, will give you this drama, u sure cry gao gao watching it. very touching!!
Ps:To all currently in UTP, anyone of you have the soundtrack for this drama? I like the one they always play when the guy n gal talks. A bit like Jap-style Lifehouse. haha.. Very nice.. Pls give me a copy if u happen to have k? Thanks in advance.
Friday, September 22, 2006
My Sassy Girl!!
Just watched another korean movie-My Sassy Girl（我的野蛮女友）. I noe it's a bit late n outdated now, well, i never watch any of these dramas at home ma. So bare with me la.
It came in two parts, 1 n 2. At 1st when i watch the 1st part, it seems so silly n dumb n i tot it's another stupid-act-funny-but-not-funny type of movie. However when i go to the 2nd part, everything seems so damn freaking romantic n touching suddenly. Felt touched.
The movie is damn hillarious i would say n to certain extend it's touching too. It's about this guy(Gyeon-woo) who met this Girl when she's heart-broken n all. N he wanted to cheer her up only to find himself falling for her later. As the movie goes on, the Girl falls for Gyeon-woo too. But the thing is that this Girl still can't get over her ex n so she finally asked him to wait for her two years.
They each wrote a letter for the other person n kept it burried under a big tree n promised to meet again in two years time as to reveal the letters n decide whether to stay together forever, or separate for good. And i shall keep the ending a mystery. All i would say is that the ending is a magnificent twist. For those who've watched it, u should understand what i'm saying, and for those who haven't, please get yourself a copy n watch it already!!
As you can see in the above picture, the Girl is very demanding and authoritative. Always wanna be in control. In a cafe, she'll ask Gyeon-woo to order his drink. Gyeon-woo says coke. She'll then stare at him and say :"WANNA DIE? DRINK COFFEE!", then to the waiter :"Two coffe please(with a smile)". The Girl is horrible when she's drunk(even when she 1st met Gyeon-woo). Gyeon-woo ended up injail for a night because he carried her to a motel and people thought he's going for a rape. He actually went into jail twice for this same reason. Damn bad luck if it's to happen to me. haha..
My sassy girl is:
i)Creative n Imaginative
The Girl is a writer n she'll always write synopsis and ask Gyeon-woo to read it. She'll go: "Read it!! Or you're dead!!" and "You don't wanna read it? U sure??". It might not be the exact words, but it's surely the same meaning. And so the script will be acted out by this two person in a very funny way. The 1st part is what u c in the pic above:terminator girl. Another one is an olden sword fighting scene where the Girl will become a samurai like bounty hunter n Gyeon-woo will fight against her. Of course, the Girl always win!! Haha..
ii)Funny n Cool
There are too many funny and hillarious scenes to be include in this post, but the one i like to mention here is the school-uniform-show-id part. This Girl demanded Gyeon-woo to wear a secondary school uniform on their 100th day anniversary. I was wondering why at first. Until i see the scene shown in the pic!! Haha.. Damn funny la. Both of them storm into a bar n then a night club holding their IDs showing to the guard with a damn LANSI face. haha.. funny.. n cool too. Imagine me and my friends doing that. That'll be the most hillarious n cool stuff to do in my life!!
And this part where they go for fencing and squash, haha.. the ball kept kena Gyeon-woo's head. Every single ball he'll miss and ended up having the ball landed on his face. The fencing also, always loose. What a looser. The way they act it damn damn hillarious..haha..
Then she'll wear heels n nicely take Gyeon-woo to a park on their 100th anniversary. But then half way whele resting on a bench, she'll complain that her feet hurts, and her solution?? Want a massage? NO,IT'S OK. INSTEAD, LETS EXCHANGE SHOE! How can a guy wear heels? IT'LL FIT!! But i can't.. YEAH? I SEE..(Girl stands up and leave.) Comon, i'll buy you some sneakers. FORGET IT!!(walking faster) Then wear mine, i'll carry yours. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WOMEN!!(leaving even faster) okay, let's exchange. REALLY?(stop and look back) HEHE..(Evilish grin)
iii)Romantic and Touching
This is on their 100th anniversary as well. The Girl ringed Gyeon-woo up a day b4 and asked Gyeon-woo how a prettiest girl would be, and he answered, a girl playing "Canon in D" on a piano is the prettiest. Then she demanded him to ask her the same ques and he did so. She answered:"Just bring a rose to my class(Girl school) and give it to me on our 100th anniversary."
And so Gyeon-woo was reluctant at 1st, because it'll be pretty embarassing for him to do so. So he wore a cap, sun-glasses n a mask to hide his face b4 going to c her in class. And when Gyeon-woo went into her class that day, still reluctantly, he found her on stage playing the song for him with everyone watching. Then he was touched and thus took off his mask and glasses and walk straight up to the stage adn gave her the rose. This part makes my bulu roma stand!!
Besides this, when the Girl's mom forced her to go for this blind date as to introduce a better guy for her. She called up Gyeon-woo and demanded him to be there as to ask his opinion whether the new guy is ok for her.
Then after three of them talked for a while, the Girl stood up to go to the bathroom, despite loving her so much and all Gyeon-woo took her to the side and told her this:
"Hey listen, I'm totally ok but you should be obedient to men, man likes something more feminine. And.. don't drink a lot. Some of the guys aim for girls intoxicated. And it's alright with me, but to the other guys, try to surrender just for once, not try to win.. good luck to you."
Then she went back to the table, Gyeon-woo already left, and the new guy said: "Gyeon-woo told me 10 rules to follow. I have good memory, so i'll recite them, 1st, don't ask her to be feminine. 2nd, don't let her drink over three glasses, she'll beat someone. In a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class. She'll like it a lot. Make sure you learn fencing and squash. Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly, you'll feel better. If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her. Finally, she likes to write. Encourage her."
Walau.. The Girl immediately leave the cafe and look for the guy. And my bulu roma stands again!!
Of cuz, these brief posts will not justify the movie at all. It at most resembles 20% of the actual feeling n hillarious-ness of the movie. So again, ppl out there who haven't watch this, please make yourself available for 2 hours and watch this movie already!!
It came in two parts, 1 n 2. At 1st when i watch the 1st part, it seems so silly n dumb n i tot it's another stupid-act-funny-but-not-funny type of movie. However when i go to the 2nd part, everything seems so damn freaking romantic n touching suddenly. Felt touched.
The movie is damn hillarious i would say n to certain extend it's touching too. It's about this guy(Gyeon-woo) who met this Girl when she's heart-broken n all. N he wanted to cheer her up only to find himself falling for her later. As the movie goes on, the Girl falls for Gyeon-woo too. But the thing is that this Girl still can't get over her ex n so she finally asked him to wait for her two years.
They each wrote a letter for the other person n kept it burried under a big tree n promised to meet again in two years time as to reveal the letters n decide whether to stay together forever, or separate for good. And i shall keep the ending a mystery. All i would say is that the ending is a magnificent twist. For those who've watched it, u should understand what i'm saying, and for those who haven't, please get yourself a copy n watch it already!!
As you can see in the above picture, the Girl is very demanding and authoritative. Always wanna be in control. In a cafe, she'll ask Gyeon-woo to order his drink. Gyeon-woo says coke. She'll then stare at him and say :"WANNA DIE? DRINK COFFEE!", then to the waiter :"Two coffe please(with a smile)". The Girl is horrible when she's drunk(even when she 1st met Gyeon-woo). Gyeon-woo ended up injail for a night because he carried her to a motel and people thought he's going for a rape. He actually went into jail twice for this same reason. Damn bad luck if it's to happen to me. haha..
My sassy girl is:
i)Creative n Imaginative
The Girl is a writer n she'll always write synopsis and ask Gyeon-woo to read it. She'll go: "Read it!! Or you're dead!!" and "You don't wanna read it? U sure??". It might not be the exact words, but it's surely the same meaning. And so the script will be acted out by this two person in a very funny way. The 1st part is what u c in the pic above:terminator girl. Another one is an olden sword fighting scene where the Girl will become a samurai like bounty hunter n Gyeon-woo will fight against her. Of course, the Girl always win!! Haha..
ii)Funny n Cool
There are too many funny and hillarious scenes to be include in this post, but the one i like to mention here is the school-uniform-show-id part. This Girl demanded Gyeon-woo to wear a secondary school uniform on their 100th day anniversary. I was wondering why at first. Until i see the scene shown in the pic!! Haha.. Damn funny la. Both of them storm into a bar n then a night club holding their IDs showing to the guard with a damn LANSI face. haha.. funny.. n cool too. Imagine me and my friends doing that. That'll be the most hillarious n cool stuff to do in my life!!
And this part where they go for fencing and squash, haha.. the ball kept kena Gyeon-woo's head. Every single ball he'll miss and ended up having the ball landed on his face. The fencing also, always loose. What a looser. The way they act it damn damn hillarious..haha..
Then she'll wear heels n nicely take Gyeon-woo to a park on their 100th anniversary. But then half way whele resting on a bench, she'll complain that her feet hurts, and her solution?? Want a massage? NO,IT'S OK. INSTEAD, LETS EXCHANGE SHOE! How can a guy wear heels? IT'LL FIT!! But i can't.. YEAH? I SEE..(Girl stands up and leave.) Comon, i'll buy you some sneakers. FORGET IT!!(walking faster) Then wear mine, i'll carry yours. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WOMEN!!(leaving even faster) okay, let's exchange. REALLY?(stop and look back) HEHE..(Evilish grin)
iii)Romantic and Touching
This is on their 100th anniversary as well. The Girl ringed Gyeon-woo up a day b4 and asked Gyeon-woo how a prettiest girl would be, and he answered, a girl playing "Canon in D" on a piano is the prettiest. Then she demanded him to ask her the same ques and he did so. She answered:"Just bring a rose to my class(Girl school) and give it to me on our 100th anniversary."
And so Gyeon-woo was reluctant at 1st, because it'll be pretty embarassing for him to do so. So he wore a cap, sun-glasses n a mask to hide his face b4 going to c her in class. And when Gyeon-woo went into her class that day, still reluctantly, he found her on stage playing the song for him with everyone watching. Then he was touched and thus took off his mask and glasses and walk straight up to the stage adn gave her the rose. This part makes my bulu roma stand!!
Besides this, when the Girl's mom forced her to go for this blind date as to introduce a better guy for her. She called up Gyeon-woo and demanded him to be there as to ask his opinion whether the new guy is ok for her.
Then after three of them talked for a while, the Girl stood up to go to the bathroom, despite loving her so much and all Gyeon-woo took her to the side and told her this:
"Hey listen, I'm totally ok but you should be obedient to men, man likes something more feminine. And.. don't drink a lot. Some of the guys aim for girls intoxicated. And it's alright with me, but to the other guys, try to surrender just for once, not try to win.. good luck to you."
Then she went back to the table, Gyeon-woo already left, and the new guy said: "Gyeon-woo told me 10 rules to follow. I have good memory, so i'll recite them, 1st, don't ask her to be feminine. 2nd, don't let her drink over three glasses, she'll beat someone. In a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class. She'll like it a lot. Make sure you learn fencing and squash. Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly, you'll feel better. If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her. Finally, she likes to write. Encourage her."
Walau.. The Girl immediately leave the cafe and look for the guy. And my bulu roma stands again!!
Of cuz, these brief posts will not justify the movie at all. It at most resembles 20% of the actual feeling n hillarious-ness of the movie. So again, ppl out there who haven't watch this, please make yourself available for 2 hours and watch this movie already!!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Another blow by DAVIDTAO!!
Just got hold of Davids new album 太美丽(Beautiful). Woah!! I mean WOAAAAAHHHH!!!
Since the call to share this passion here is too great for me to resist, i only manage to listen it once before posting, but overall, it's another unbelievable album!! Or mayb i'll change my mind after listening to it a few times? haha.. hope not..
And also, the reason i only get to listen to the rest of the album only once is because i'm too in love with the main hitz-太美丽(Beautiful) itself!! The lyrics and the song itself is magnificent!! I mean SUPERBLY MAGNIFICENT!! I've been listening to this particular song for more than an hour now and i'm still listening to it at this very moment!! Guess what, the counter from WMP says i've been playing it for 13 times already!!
ps: anyone who's reading this n is currently in utp, could u pls give me another copy of this album if u happen to have one? The one i hv now is a lil corrupted. sigh..
Tht's y kids, we should never purchase pirated products!!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
雨
这几天的雨，
寒冷而漫长，
牵起了深埋的回忆。
***************
雨天，
有种淡淡的味道，
像妈妈淡淡的体香，
让我回想小时候。
那年的我，
小小的不懂事，
依着妈妈的怀里，
慢慢的睢着。
***************
雨天，
带有苦涩的味道，
也残留你的发香，
让我回想起你。
你抱着我，
吻着我在哭泣，
说离开了我，
我会好过一点。
****************
雨天，
混合着，
回忆，
不知所措的感触。
寒冷而漫长，
牵起了深埋的回忆。
***************
雨天，
有种淡淡的味道，
像妈妈淡淡的体香，
让我回想小时候。
那年的我，
小小的不懂事，
依着妈妈的怀里，
慢慢的睢着。
***************
雨天，
带有苦涩的味道，
也残留你的发香，
让我回想起你。
你抱着我，
吻着我在哭泣，
说离开了我，
我会好过一点。
****************
雨天，
混合着，
回忆，
不知所措的感触。
Wow!!
~CLICK on ME!!~
Hv a look at this, pics taken in UTP.
1st is the love bird who's found dead side by side on the handle of the stairs in new academic building.
then, the gathering of makcik's in library.
horrible sceneries..
ps: Aiting, sorry pinjam your post a while. i lazy wanna upload the pics. kaka.. or u can treat this as a promotion to your blog. haha...
Hv a look at this, pics taken in UTP.
1st is the love bird who's found dead side by side on the handle of the stairs in new academic building.
then, the gathering of makcik's in library.
horrible sceneries..
ps: Aiting, sorry pinjam your post a while. i lazy wanna upload the pics. kaka.. or u can treat this as a promotion to your blog. haha...
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Friends come n go, don't they?
Today is Mk's birthday.
Picked her up last nite to go out for a drink since i haven seen her for a long time. Charmain followed along as well. Wanted to take some pics with them both but too bad i forget my cam. How forgetful i can get these days..
A fruitful night to catch up with friends b4 i "yi lu xiang bei" again. N i'm glad she's happy to have her birthday celebrated in a slightly different way this year. With no cakes, no presents, no parties, no TE gang, but only the three of us with some drinks n chattings. N of cuz, lots of laughters.
As we were chatting about the gud old days when we're still in high school. I started wondering, how many of us frens can last long enough to c each other graduate, n mayb get married, or mayb hv children? sounds impossible isn't it?
Even now, the sense of belonging among TE gang seems to fade. Ppl closes to me also isn't that close anymore. When we sit down in mamaks, topic runs dry, n we start staring each other feeling uneasy. N even my phone doesn't beep that much anymore. Is this going to continue this way?
N each time i ask if u miss me, i'm actually wondering when will u say u dun. When will that be? seriously, when will that be?
Picked her up last nite to go out for a drink since i haven seen her for a long time. Charmain followed along as well. Wanted to take some pics with them both but too bad i forget my cam. How forgetful i can get these days..
A fruitful night to catch up with friends b4 i "yi lu xiang bei" again. N i'm glad she's happy to have her birthday celebrated in a slightly different way this year. With no cakes, no presents, no parties, no TE gang, but only the three of us with some drinks n chattings. N of cuz, lots of laughters.
As we were chatting about the gud old days when we're still in high school. I started wondering, how many of us frens can last long enough to c each other graduate, n mayb get married, or mayb hv children? sounds impossible isn't it?
Even now, the sense of belonging among TE gang seems to fade. Ppl closes to me also isn't that close anymore. When we sit down in mamaks, topic runs dry, n we start staring each other feeling uneasy. N even my phone doesn't beep that much anymore. Is this going to continue this way?
N each time i ask if u miss me, i'm actually wondering when will u say u dun. When will that be? seriously, when will that be?
Friday, September 15, 2006
End of hols..
Will be going back to campus on sat morning. Finally, my mid sem break is almost over.
Haven done much, besides finishing FUllHOUSE, Utopia, eat, spend time with parents and baby rou. din even get to c much of sis. She's pretty busy with her uni activities. Gonna miss her lots.
This time around, i'll be facing my finals again b4 i can rest for another 1 n a half months in mid november.
Having insomnia lately, i wonder.. Only 18, n i'm having this prob. mayb i'm not used to my bed at home anymore. that sounds pathetic to me. it's like having something u once lived with n now u can no longer feel comfortable with it anymore. how can this be happening.
Or perhaps i think too much lately? Been thinking pretty much this few months. Thinking what i will become in 3 years time, will i graduate with an honours? or perhaps i won't make it that far? thinking bout how life will be for me when i'm out working. I want to be a succesful person. that's what they taught me to be since i'm 5. or maybe younger. Tht's why people study so hard n work so hard each day. Just to be succesful.
Then what is being succesful? To many ppl, it means to be rich. To be famous maybe? Having higher social status? being able to brag around with their big houses n big cars perhaps?
For me, I want to have a nice n cozy room to begin with. With carpeted walls, a king size bed, a tv set, a com, complete with surrounding system. that's what i dreamt of since young. Weird dream huh? i never like my room. it's not carpeted, single bed, lousy window, broken door, dim fluorescent light, n the list goes on.. not liking it is one thing, but i really do appreciate what i have now. at least i hv MY room to begin with. rmb since young, many of my frens hv to share rooms with their siblings, i'm always proud to hv my own.
I don't need a big car, just a plain one will do.
I want a high paid job. According to what i learn n understand all these years, money may not be everything, but everything needs money. n the word succesful can never go without 'money'. i dun nid to be rich, but i dun wanna be poor either. so if i hv to choose one, i'll surely choose to be rich. simple logic isn't it. Bear in mind, we're living in a realistic world. not the fantasy world we c on Tvs.
I want a perfect family, but i noe that can never come true, cuz ppl use to say 'Nth is perfect'. So maybe i should rephrase. I want a good family. beautiful wife n wonderful kids.. haha.. [evilish grin] Tht's just plain hope though.
N ya, b4 that, i would like to do my parents a favor. Fulfill their dreams. There are things that they wish to do but couldn't due to circumstances, n i really hope that i can make things come true for them one day.
These are the things that i think of, dream of n wonder about these few months. Maybe it'll come true one day n i hope i'll be satisfied with myself then. If things do not turn out that way, i guess God has a bigger plan for me n i shud pray more often. haha..
So, i shall get some rest now..
Nites all..
Haven done much, besides finishing FUllHOUSE, Utopia, eat, spend time with parents and baby rou. din even get to c much of sis. She's pretty busy with her uni activities. Gonna miss her lots.
This time around, i'll be facing my finals again b4 i can rest for another 1 n a half months in mid november.
Having insomnia lately, i wonder.. Only 18, n i'm having this prob. mayb i'm not used to my bed at home anymore. that sounds pathetic to me. it's like having something u once lived with n now u can no longer feel comfortable with it anymore. how can this be happening.
Or perhaps i think too much lately? Been thinking pretty much this few months. Thinking what i will become in 3 years time, will i graduate with an honours? or perhaps i won't make it that far? thinking bout how life will be for me when i'm out working. I want to be a succesful person. that's what they taught me to be since i'm 5. or maybe younger. Tht's why people study so hard n work so hard each day. Just to be succesful.
Then what is being succesful? To many ppl, it means to be rich. To be famous maybe? Having higher social status? being able to brag around with their big houses n big cars perhaps?
For me, I want to have a nice n cozy room to begin with. With carpeted walls, a king size bed, a tv set, a com, complete with surrounding system. that's what i dreamt of since young. Weird dream huh? i never like my room. it's not carpeted, single bed, lousy window, broken door, dim fluorescent light, n the list goes on.. not liking it is one thing, but i really do appreciate what i have now. at least i hv MY room to begin with. rmb since young, many of my frens hv to share rooms with their siblings, i'm always proud to hv my own.
I don't need a big car, just a plain one will do.
I want a high paid job. According to what i learn n understand all these years, money may not be everything, but everything needs money. n the word succesful can never go without 'money'. i dun nid to be rich, but i dun wanna be poor either. so if i hv to choose one, i'll surely choose to be rich. simple logic isn't it. Bear in mind, we're living in a realistic world. not the fantasy world we c on Tvs.
I want a perfect family, but i noe that can never come true, cuz ppl use to say 'Nth is perfect'. So maybe i should rephrase. I want a good family. beautiful wife n wonderful kids.. haha.. [evilish grin] Tht's just plain hope though.
N ya, b4 that, i would like to do my parents a favor. Fulfill their dreams. There are things that they wish to do but couldn't due to circumstances, n i really hope that i can make things come true for them one day.
These are the things that i think of, dream of n wonder about these few months. Maybe it'll come true one day n i hope i'll be satisfied with myself then. If things do not turn out that way, i guess God has a bigger plan for me n i shud pray more often. haha..
So, i shall get some rest now..
Nites all..
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Misery
Another night of me n me alone..
Hols seems to be relaxing but at the same time suffocating..
Days pass by without warnings while Nights go by slowly yet torturing..
I'm having insomnia lately..
Dreaming of you and you leaving...
Misery..
Hols seems to be relaxing but at the same time suffocating..
Days pass by without warnings while Nights go by slowly yet torturing..
I'm having insomnia lately..
Dreaming of you and you leaving...
Misery..
Friday, August 25, 2006
Foundation Graduation Ceremony!!
Planned to skip this graduation ceremony at 1st. Last night dota till 3am somemore. Was still sleeping when Sam woke up n went. Was still sleeping when jia min told me that attendance was taken. Lazily, i climbed out of my comfy bed, wash up n iron my shirt. there goes my sleep i thought.
Was wondering if i need to walk to chancellor hall this time since Sam already went with Peng on bike. Luckily, I looked down from my window and saw Langesh coming back on his bike, he forgotten his matric card. God bless.. I found my transport. haha..
The ceremony was extremely boring. It's actually a rehearsal for final year graduation ceremony besides our actual graduation ceremony. So we have to wait till their rehearsal finished, before we can actually collect our cert on stage. One by one. And speaking of our cert, wut we actually get from the rector is only an empty file, i wonder what happened to my cert. Think it'll be given later.
The best part of all this is-->Photo Session!! With everyone wearing formal attire, trying to look smart, we certainly won't forget to pose n take pics!! lots n lots of them. N i juz noticed that i haven't took any pics with sam yet, not until today after almost 1 n 1/2 years being rumates.
Here are some pics to share:
Me n Shiou Ting!!(She looks extremely nice with her baju kurung)
This is me n Lenis(the guy staying opposite my room!Sarawakian!Also the guy who always hold my pillow tight tight n say"kap seng dai fat!!"- trying to absorb my knowledge which he believes is stored in my pillow! sweat!)
Again, Lenis n KeeHui(Kelantanese). Gayness defined!
This is the group of EE chinese students which are all same class as me.
Lastly, me n my poser rummie. Kept asking me to take his solo pics.. sigh!!
Okie..Tht's all for now. Will try to edit n upload more pics next time!
ps:i had MC dapao from Kai San(Colleen's fren) today!! Yummie...
Was wondering if i need to walk to chancellor hall this time since Sam already went with Peng on bike. Luckily, I looked down from my window and saw Langesh coming back on his bike, he forgotten his matric card. God bless.. I found my transport. haha..
The ceremony was extremely boring. It's actually a rehearsal for final year graduation ceremony besides our actual graduation ceremony. So we have to wait till their rehearsal finished, before we can actually collect our cert on stage. One by one. And speaking of our cert, wut we actually get from the rector is only an empty file, i wonder what happened to my cert. Think it'll be given later.
The best part of all this is-->Photo Session!! With everyone wearing formal attire, trying to look smart, we certainly won't forget to pose n take pics!! lots n lots of them. N i juz noticed that i haven't took any pics with sam yet, not until today after almost 1 n 1/2 years being rumates.
Here are some pics to share:
Me n Shiou Ting!!(She looks extremely nice with her baju kurung)
This is me n Lenis(the guy staying opposite my room!Sarawakian!Also the guy who always hold my pillow tight tight n say"kap seng dai fat!!"- trying to absorb my knowledge which he believes is stored in my pillow! sweat!)
Again, Lenis n KeeHui(Kelantanese). Gayness defined!
This is the group of EE chinese students which are all same class as me.
Lastly, me n my poser rummie. Kept asking me to take his solo pics.. sigh!!
Okie..Tht's all for now. Will try to edit n upload more pics next time!
ps:i had MC dapao from Kai San(Colleen's fren) today!! Yummie...
Monday, August 21, 2006
Bee hive..
Huge bee hive found on my window since long ago. Finally removed it today after Sam(my rummie) ran out of the room after seeing a huge bee roaming around.
B4 removing it, i took some pics of it too..
Here's a pic of it b4 removing proccess starts. keke..*evilish*
After smashing part of it, u can c the interior.
notice the diff colors(green,black,yellow..)
And if u can c, u'll notice there's a yellow thingy with the shape of the 'bullet tablets"(though u can only c half of it.). I wonder if tht's the egg? or food? n the black thing, i guess it's the shit perhaps? while the green one looks like someone's puke..
so "wat tat"...
B4 removing it, i took some pics of it too..
Here's a pic of it b4 removing proccess starts. keke..*evilish*
After smashing part of it, u can c the interior.
notice the diff colors(green,black,yellow..)And if u can c, u'll notice there's a yellow thingy with the shape of the 'bullet tablets"(though u can only c half of it.). I wonder if tht's the egg? or food? n the black thing, i guess it's the shit perhaps? while the green one looks like someone's puke..
so "wat tat"...
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